Andrew and I just watched this video from the Republican National Convention taking place in Tampa, Florida this week.  It had GRAVE resemblances to North Dakota's Republican convention earlier this year which we attended. 

I urge you to watch this carefully.  Let me explain the process.  Each state chairman will count the votes that were cast by their state's delegates.  They will say how many votes were cast for Romney and how many were cast for Ron Paul--or at least they are supposed to do so.

Then the National secretary is to repeat for the record EXACTLY what the state chairman reported.  Now LISTEN to what she says.  There are times when the state chair reported votes for Ron Paul but the National secretary REFUSED TO EVEN SAY HIS NAME AND GIVE HIM CREDIT FOR THE VOTES THAT HE EARNED EVEN WHEN RON PAUL WAS IN THE MAJORITY!!!

How blatant can you get?  How stupid can you get?  One time when the state chair was saying how many votes were cast for Ron Paul, the mic suddenly got turned down!!!  Heaven forbid that the people's votes be heard if it is anything other than the popular establishment's crony. 

I urge you again.  Listen carefully to this video and see if anything was handled fairly in Tampa.  How stupid can these party people get to piss off many many people (especially young people) by acting like blooming idiots?  Who would even want to be a Republican any more?  It's a disgrace...

Maybe it's time that conservatives leave the Republican party in droves and seek a party that sincerely wants their opinions and values to be heard.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Dawn

What a fantastic week it was!

I didn't realize that I hadn't finished this post from when Ed was here.  I just found it in drafts and decided to share it even though it's very old news now.

Happy Sabbath everyone!

Dawn

My week started at the Kelly Inn.  On Sunday evening, while Sarah was still here, Ed called me and said that he was in Bismarck.  I asked him when he needed to be in class the next day and he said, "Seven o'clock."  I gulped but said that I'd be there.

When I pulled in at 10 to Seven,  Ed was there standing outside in the lovely Summer morning sunshine.  After we hauled in the boxes, Ed started unpacking them and I brought in the 3 machines that I'd brought for class.  One was for me to use in class and 2 were rental machines. 

This is where we ate lunch and the food was very good at Minervas!

This was on the marquee for the four days that I was there--3 days of beginner class and the last day was the advanced class.

My brother from the South--Ed Kelly.  He calls me his "Sweet sister of the North." 

This was our class.  Although the class was small, it was filled with deep thinkers. What a phenomenal mixture of energies merged as we learned from each other.  I liked that everyone felt free to ask questions or to give suggestions of how to do things better.

On the last day, the advanced class, Jacob came along with me and attended class too.  This is his WorkStation.  Dr. Bob had asked to see the inside of one of them so Ed obliged.  It was fascinating to hear all about the instrument from the owner of the company.  Ed has such a wonderful teaching style and, as he said himself, "I could talk for weeks about radionics."

After class was over, Jacob and I helped Ed pack up his equipment and teaching materials.  Robert had dropped in that day, after his dentist appointment, and Ed went over his new tuning station with us so that he could answer all of our questions about the instrument.  Yes, we did end up buying it so I am so excited to have another Kelly instrument in our arsenal against weeds and bugs on the farm.

Then Ed took us out for supper.  He said, "I want to go somewhere that I can't go to in the South."  We took him to the Ground Round which is one of our favorite places to eat out.  HE LOVED IT!  We discussed the class and the possibility of Ed returning to Bismarck to teach his awesome class again in the future.  We tentatively set up the class for the second week of November 2013.  He said that we need to accept that Summer is just not a good time to hold a class for farmers. 

The class was a awesome learning experience and it was absolutely wonderful to spend time with Ed Kelly--one of my heroes and a truly great guy!

I hope to see YOU in our next class!!!

The givers and the takers

Last Thursday I had an appointment with Dr. Faye Johnson who is a naturopath and a miracle worker.  God worked it out that Jacob was NOT in the room with me, which was unusual, so I wondered what He was up to.

I told Faye that I'm doing another Master Cleanse and that it's been very painful.  My mind keeps going back into the time of the molestations and releasing disturbing memories.  I've been so thankful that I have my new EFT course as I've been able to release them as they come up.  However, I told Faye, my knees have been in absolutely excruciating pain and she reminded me of how fear is stored there.  I know that already but it felt so good coming from her as a possible explanation for all of the pain.

As Faye listened, she said, "What keeps coming up in your body, as you talk, is that you are pissed off about the abuse in your childhood.  Have you ever allowed yourself to totally let out the rage inside of you over this?"  When I didn't answer, she went on, "Oh, I suppose that wouldn't be "Christian?"

That was an interesting thought.  Maybe the reason this really HAS dragged on for me IS because I was taught in Sunday School, and countless sermons, that getting angry is a sin.  We talked about that a lot and my mind opened up to the possibility that maybe, just maybe, I have a little bit of anger or rage inside of me over all of the abuse.  Maybe that's why my body keeps limping along???

Faye said, "I see you having to do something active to get rid of all of this negative energy.  I see you in a grain bin just throwing things around and cussing and letting off steam."

That was when I told her that most of the molestations took place in the grain bin.  I told her that I am open to whatever God wants me to do to get rid of whatever is causing all of this pain in my knees.

Towards the end of the treatment, Faye had me turn over onto my abdomen.  She dug her elbow into the tender areas on the outside of my knees.  In a quick movement, she pulled the muscle back out to the side where it belongs.  Yes, this did hurt VERY much and I pondered how they could have pulled in so far.  Maybe I've just been stiff for so long trying to keep from going back into those memories?

After I got my wind back, I sat up and Faye smiled at me.  She said, "You're on a very interesting journey.  What your body said is that you need to develop compassion for all people but until you get rid of all of this rage, that will be impossible for you and you will NOT be able to help everyone that you could otherwise."

I told her, "I have great compassion for anyone who has been abused, but the perpetrators can be fed to the lions as far as I am concerned."

She laughed and said, "And the sooner the better, right?"
I said, "Right!"

Then Faye sobered again and said, "You have the potential to help all sorts of people, but first you must get rid of this rage inside of you.  I'm not saying that anyone wouldn't have had this much anger, if they had lived like you were forced to live.  What I am saying is that you have to get rid of it completely if you want to help absolutely everyone."

I said, "I do," and nodded that I understood what she was saying.   I told Dr. Faye that I will do my homework.  She hugged me and left with, "Take your time in getting ready to go."

It seemed like a little blessing but now I don't think so at all.  What does that mean?  I can take time for ME?  I can take the time that I need?  I matter??????

Well, Friday we went to Hannover for a funeral and yesterday was Sabbath and we were with friends, so there really was no time for letting off steam in grain bins.  This morning, though, I knew that the time had come.  I was nervous, like a caged animal, waiting for the time to come when I would somehow be able to safely release 54 years of rage.  It didn't turn out that way but I am happy to share what did happen when I went out and sat in the oats bin right now.

I was a bit upset that Andrew was working in the shop as I had envisioned the yard being empty when I became a maniac.  Being I had to walk right past him, I figured I better tell Andrew what I was doing so I said, "I'm going to go sit in the oats bin.  Faye said that I need to go in there and get some healing as that is where they molested me." 

Although his eyebrows went up, my son calmly said, "You may not want to go and sit in that bin as there are bugs in there."  UGH,  he knows how much I hate bugs crawling on my skin.

After I toured the other bins and saw that none of them would work, I headed for the oats bin after all.  I calmly opened the door and sat on the edge of the frame and waited for the storm, but it never came.

When I closed my eyes and relaxed, I was drawn to the strong clear voice of my precious son singing praises to God.  As I listened to Andrew singing hymn after hymn, instead of a storm, a great calm swept over me.  "Is this working," I prayed and somehow I knew that God smiled.

That was when I realized that He truly was very close to me there.  My mind went back in time but there was only a calm and somehow I knew that God was telling me that He had been with me through it all.  I had always known that I never could have survived what I did, had He not been close to me, but this was the first time that I had ever returned to that scene and felt a peace and calm.  Andrew's singing brought in that perspective and I praised God for my life that had produced such an incredible person.

After awhile, the bugs did start to bite me, so I closed the bin door and wandered to a quiet place under the trees near where Andrew was working.  Then God gave me a vision of Himself and a group of men who were gathered in what looked like a courtroom.

 God said to me, "What do you think of givers and takers?"

"I think," I replied, "that all takers should become givers."

"Then what would become of the givers?" I was asked.  "Who will they give to?  They need to give, you know, Dawn."

I was stumped and said "I don't know."

"Why do you think the takers take?" God asked next.

"Because they need to, I suppose," I replied.

"Why are they so needy?"

"HMMM.  I don't know," I admitted again.

"What would happen if the givers only gave to the takers when they truly wanted to?  Then what they would give, would fill a need in the takers because they would know that the givers really WANTED to give to them.  It would have more meaning than if the givers just gave all the time, whether they wanted to or not.  Can you see that, Dawn?"

"Yes Lord.  But what will happen to the givers--they need to give you know?" I asked the Lord.

His reply stunned me, "What if the givers would give to THEMSELVES at all times when they don't truly want to give to the takers?
HM  "I suppose," I replied, "that then they wouldn't be so needy from the takers not ever giving to them.  Is that what would happen, Lord?" I queried.

"EXACTLY," was the response.  "Your homework is to think about this, Dawn.  Think about ways that you can give to YOURSELF so that you have something left to give to all of the takers out there in the world."

"You never know," he continued, "Perhaps when a taker is paired with a giver who gives to himself FIRST, then the taker will get richer tidbits from the giver who is much happier and well adjusted.  Perhaps those true tidbits of affection will inspire the taker to begin giving to himself too and THEN, and only then, does he have a chance of becoming a true giver to others for he will know the joy of giving AND receiving from himself."

I smiled and the scene faded away into my subconscious.  Suddenly Andrew's singing was no longer mournful but full of life and blessing for me.  Here he had been giving to me all along but I was not able to take of the nourishment because I had not yet given the gift of love to myself.  I hadn't taken the time for myself to really face the issue deepest in my heart which was how to have healthy relationships when the world is full of so many takers. 

Soon I found myself over by Andrew.  I thanked him deeply for his songs as I pondered life.  He smiled and started singing all over again a song that I had taught him long ago.  "I sing because I'm happy.  I sing because I'm free..."  Soon I found myself singing with my son, with a trembling voice full of joy, and finding him busy with his hands I wandered in here to share my revelations with you all.

So, although my grain bin visit wasn't one bit like Dr. Faye had painted for me, it was better.  My son's faith poured over into my life and filled it with joy and peace.  Further, God Himself showed me that it's NOT selfish to give myself joy on a daily basis.  I CAN truly sit here and take half an hour--maybe even an hour--to share my heart with anyone whom this may bless and NOT FEEL GUILTY that I'm "Not working." 

It's going to take some getting used to but something tells me that I'm going to get through this crisis more quickly now.  I still covet your prayers but now I'm not alone in the world any more--I have ME.  Although I haven't been a very good friend to myself in the past, I am willing to learn how to give to me and that's what's important for now. 

I continue to covet your prayers as my body heals and as my mind learns how to give to me on a daily basis and not think that this is unselfish or unchristian.  If you think that it is, PLEASE just keep your thoughts to yourself.  I've heard them from myself for over 50 years and I don't need any MORE reproof.  What I need now is LOTS of love and most of all--from MYSELF!!!

My God bless everyone with a giving heart towards themselves,

Dawn

Goggle vs Big Brother

http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2012/08/05/internet-security-virus.aspx

When is your mom going to eat again?

This is the question that Cora has been asked here lately and others have wondered too.  Actually I don 't know.  It's a bit disconcerting to be so unaware of God's plans for this cleanse.  All I know is that, when the missionary was here from Wisconsin, he mentioned that he did it for 40 days and I got little tingles down my spine.  Is that where I'm headed?

I will say that it made me nervous to keep going past 15 days so I haven't done it before.  Research has shown that, after 15 days, the body starts storing fat instead of shedding it.  Believe me, after losing 15 pounds on this cleanse, I do NOT want it to come back EVER.

As a variation, then, I have added in Johanna Budwig's formula that has done a lot of good to heal the sick around the world.  If  you want more information about this, feel free to go here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Johanna_Budwig

Anyway, at one meal I eat 1/4 cup cottage cheese;  1/8 cup flax seed oil (or ground flax); and about 1/2 cup of fruit.  This has healed many people of all sorts of things so I think it's a great addition to the cleanse.  However, if I start gaining weight, I'm not sure what I'll do.  I'm not expecting it to as the Budwig remedy helps with obesity too. 

Then to answer the question, I am drinking lemonade all day and night long when hunger strikes.  Plus that, I am indulging in SOME food as I shared above.  It's not much but it sure is nice to chew again.  Hey, I didn't forget how.  ;)

Happy Sabbath everyone!

Dawn

PS.  We're having our John Birch chapter meeting this afternoon at the McClures so we're off.  I am glad that I ate my cottage cheese at lunch as Cora's fruit pizza looks awfully tempting. 

Hallelujah

I can just hear Pastor Prince saying, "Hallelujah" as he finished writing his devotional this morning.  I agree and am so blessed to be under grace and no longer under condemnation for condemnation kills.

One other joy this morning is that I weighed in 15 pounds lighter at the end of 15 days on the Master Cleanse.  See, no condemnation pays!

Enjoy!

Don’t Be Judgment-Focused

2 Corinthians 5:19 19… God was in Christ reconciling the world to Himself, not imputing their trespasses to them…

On which two ancient cities did God rain brimstone and fire? If your answer is Sodom and Gomorrah, you are right. But if you think that God was all eager to destroy the two cities, you are wrong! God wasn’t willing at all. He was not on a sin hunt. He was on a righteousness hunt so that He could spare the cities. (Genesis 18:23–32) And I believe that if Abraham had asked God, “What if You can find just one righteous man?” God’s answer would have been the same: “I will not destroy the place for the sake of one righteous man.” Today, the righteousness of one Man — Jesus — has come. Jesus died for our sins and rose again for our justification. God was in Christ, reconciling the world to Himself, not counting our sins against us! Therefore, no judgment will fall on you today because it fell on Jesus 2,000 years ago at Calvary. And if God was gracious enough to remove Lot and his family before the judgment fell (Genesis 19:12–22), how much more will He do for you who are no longer under judgment! And because God does not judge you, don’t be like Lot’s wife, who became a pillar of salt when she turned around to look at the brimstone and fire. (Genesis 19:24–26) She wanted to see God’s judgment, even though the angels had warned, “Don’t look back, lest you be destroyed.” (Genesis 19:17) So don’t be judgment-focused and look back at the sins you have committed. God is not against you. He is for you and on your side. He remembers that He has already judged and punished your sins in the body of His Son. And because He is faithful to His Son and to what His Son has done, He will never judge or punish you. Any trouble that you might have today is not from Him. But He will show you a way of escape because He is on your side. He loves you and has your best interests at heart. Beloved, God is not out to get you. He is out to bless you. And He wants you blessed more than you can ever ask or imagine! (Ephesians 3:20)