"Please heal me, Lord!" That has been my cry for nearly 20 years (since 2006) when I lay dying from shingles on the brain. No doctor could figure out what was wrong with me but God knew! He brought me through the worst pain imaginable to the other side--to joy!
The shingles on the brain led to MS though. Every day I cry out to Him "Heal me Lord." I don't know why I'm still living. Some days I beg to be removed from the Earth but always He says "I have work for you to do!" Some day He won't, I'm sure of that, but for now I plod along.
It's easy to loose one's joy in all of that pain. That's why this message today is crucial to my keeping on pushing towards the high calling He has for me! Joy will come again.
Please pray for my family and I. With 2 babies and a wedding this Summer my energy reserves are being pushed to the limits. I know that prayer changes things, though, so I decided to ask you to pray for me again. Please pray that Father carries me through it all to HIS joy as He has done in the past.
"Please flood me with your peace and joy, dear Lord!"
Dawn
I Hear His Whisper...
Joy will come again.
I am the God of the brokenhearted. When the pain of life beats you up, I am your safe refuge. Hide yourself in me. Come away and rest in me. I am your Healer, and I am kind. I am merciful, and I am good. I love you, and I know how to heal your tender heart. Don’t doubt, beloved. Believe in my healing love. Believe in my mercy. Believe in my mighty power. Believe that I am worth trusting.
I am the King of glory. I am bigger and more magnificent than you can possibly imagine. Even when you fall or disappoint yourself, I am with you. Rest in my finished work. Open your heart to me. Will you? Will you let me flood you with healing and peace once again? I will lift you up and resuscitate your faith.
It’s okay to go through seasons of grief and weariness, but after I’ve strengthened you, take my hand and walk with me back into joy. I will not neglect you! Joy will come again. This is my promise to you.
Do it again! Those YAHWEH has set free will return to Zion and come celebrating with songs of joy! They will be crowned with never-ending joy! Gladness and joy will overwhelm them; despair and depression will disappear!
The election went well yesterday as far as the mechanics of running a fair and honest election are concerned. I felt good as I drove through a heavy rainstorm towards home. However, later when I saw the results I crashed.
Every one of those who followed the pollical process and jumped through every hoop to get their names on the ballot did NOT get elected. Those who took the governor's bribe and did not even attend our state convention WON THEIR ELECTIONS!!!
I don't see how we'll ever get a decent citizen to run for office again. They spend their money and weeks and weeks of their time but, if they're a true conservative in North Dakota, the political machine will run them over. HEAR OUR CRIES, OH LORD, FOR JUSTICE.
Today I am so weak I can hardly move. I thought just now that there may be a poem about feeling this way--one that would truly encourage us. This one is amazing and I pray it blesses you all.
Let us not grow weary in well doing. We have each other. These people who sell out to the deep state have no community, no fellowship, no peace knowing that how they use the power given to them has NOT been a blessing to those they are supposed to be serving.
If you are greatly discouraged today, too, then this is for you.
Dawn
A Christian Poem on Adrenal Fatigue
"My Strength Is Renewed in You"
O Lord, my weary soul, I come before You, Bearing the weight of days that never end. My body hums with fatigue, my mind is thin, Yet You are my rest, my peace, my friend.
I have labored long, my yoke was heavy, My burdens piled like mountains, high and steep. But You said, “Come to me, all who are heavy-laden,” And I found rest in You, my soul’s release OpenBible.info.
I have tried to run, to push through pain, To meet each day with strength I did not have. But You reminded me, “Do not be anxious,” And gave me peace that guards my heart and soul OpenBible.info.
My strength is not in will or might, But in Your Word, in prayer, in faith’s embrace. You renew my mind, You transform my life, And give me power when I am weak A Little R & R.
So I wait for You, I trust in You, For You give strength to the faint and weary. Even youths shall faint, even kings may fall, But those who wait on You shall rise anew OpenBible.info.
I will not grow weary of doing good, For in due season I will reap what’s sown. And in You, Lord, I find my peace, My hope, my joy, my endless home.
Amen.
This poem blends Scripture references to rest, peace, and renewal with the Christian understanding of adrenal fatigue as a call to rest, release, and reliance on God’s strength. It can be read as both a personal prayer and a meditative reflection for those struggling with chronic exhaustion.
I just got home from spending 2 1/2 weeks with my daughter's family. We were very disappointed when this baby also came early. She is their smallest baby yet and will most likely be in the hospital up to a month. PLEASE pray for this little baby who finally made it up to 5 pounds.
My job was to keep the 5 children at home fed, clothed, and safe. I'm very thankful for the team of baby's daddy; the other grandma; and the friend from church who has been coming into their home the past few months. Together we kept the household running somewhat smoothly--not like Mom does it but almost as good. :)
I had to come home because I'm working the election tomorrow as I had made that commitment assuming that baby would come closer to July. We also have our community picnic in the park this coming Sabbath which is one of my very favorite events of the year.
This year my son's fiancé's family will be joining us so that makes me a little nervous. They have not made the long trip here but now that Jacob and Sharon are engaged, I guess they decided to travel our way. There are 9 children in that family.
If I sound stressed, that's because I am. I missed my chiropractor appointment, when I was caring for my grandchildren, so that doesn't help with the pain. The 6 hour drive home yesterday, although uneventful, added to my stress. Today I'm working on the laundry piled up here and trying to rest up too. I sure could use your prayers.
Cora is doing well considering she just had her 5th C section. She knows her children at home are loved and cared for so she can focus on the tiny child in the NICU. I went in search of a poem about premie babies and I found 30 little prayers for these tiny human beings. I'll share 1 down below
I got to hold my granddaughter last week now that she's finally off of oxygen. I treasure this picture now that I'm back home and far away from those I love so much.
PLEASE JOIN ME IN PRAYING A LONG AND HAPPY LIFE FOR THIS LITTLE GIRL!!!
Thanks for always being there. I love you so much. You are the prayer team I so desperately need! This year I have 2 new grandbabies coming plus my son's wedding. Lord, please keep me calm so the pain stays manageable. May the Lord richly bless each one of you who prays for me and my family!
Dawn
Prayer for Progress Each Day
Heavenly Father, may each day bring progress, no matter how small. Let Your healing fill our baby’s body, one miracle at a time. In Jesus name Amen.
I am trying to stay calm. Once again my daughter is in the hospital with signs of going into labor 2 months early. We were hoping that the extra progesterone would keep baby in longer. To say the least, we are VEEEERRRRYYYYYYYYY disappointed.
This will be my daughter's 5th C section. PLEASE PRAY FOR HER AND BABY.
I wasn't planning on being gone for a month for several weeks yet. Now I have to hussle to get clothes washed for me and my guys. I had hoped to have some casseroles in the freezer for them before I made the 5 hour trip to my daughter's home. I told her that I cannot leave today.
The good news is that God provided a friend who has been coming in to their home 5 days a week for several months. The children know her and love her already. Cora said she asked her to come in early today. I sure hope she could as the other Grandma, who came in the middle of the night, will have her hands full with 5 children at home as they wake up wondering where their Mama is.
I know I should be getting the washing machine going but writing has always been my therapy. Also I know that many of my readers must be prayer warriors as I can feel the prayers coming when I ask for them. May our loving Heavenly Father bless you for keeping my daughter's family in your prayers for their needs are urgent.
I need prayers, too, as I have to make the long trip alone tomorrow if they need to take the baby today. My guys are still planting the crops so Robert is unable to get away until that is done. I'm still dealing with cancer in my right shoulder but it is mostly gone now. Like I said, "I am trying to stay calm."
When I taught my children to be pro-life, as they watched me have miscarriage after miscarriage, I never thought it would mean my daughter would have to go through 3 week NICU stays with premie babies. She is THE MOST AMAZING WOMAN I KNOW. How I wish she didn't have to go through this again.
More good news is that they gave her the steroid shot when she got to the hospital at 2:00 AM this morning. They'll give her a second one 24 hours later if the contractions can be stopped for that long. This rapidly develops the lungs of the baby so no oxygen is needed. Two babies back there was time to get both of those shots and the baby needed no oxygen unlike the baby before who didn't get the shot as it was the first premie. That baby needed oxygen for 10 days. With the last baby there was only time to get 1 shot in and that baby's lungs were fine too.
Please pray that this baby's lungs are fine if there is only time for 1 steroid shot.
Like I said before, I am trying to stay calm as I wait for news if they were able to get the contractions to stop. I'm praying that they stop and baby stays in a couple more weeks. That will help so much!!!
I'm not exactly sure what Father is saying to me through this devotional this morning. I often can tell what He is "Getting at" when I read these messages from THE PASSION TRANSLATION. I will need to ponder on this today.
Today is a special day in our family. My husband, Robert, turns 70 years old. I think I'll share what I posted on Facebook this morning about that. Please send him prayers for a joy-filled day as he drives tractor all day--doing what he loves the most!!!
Please join me in wishing my sweetie a happy 70th birthday today. We had Robert's party last Sabbath because he is happily driving tractor all day today. Maybe I'll catch a ride with him this afternoon. Thanks go out to our daughter-in-law for elegantly decorating the cake and our future daughter-in-law for making him a sour cream raisin pie which is one of his favorites.
Encounter God’s Heart…
People of Our Word
Following through on our promises is as important as the vows we make. In fact, it is even more valuable. If we do not faithfully do what we promise, then our word means nothing to others. Instead of building bridges of trust, we tear at the fabric of our own character. We cannot forget the power of keeping our promises. It is not too late to do what we said we would. Importantly, we should also consider how we can transform going forward. Instead of overpromising and underdelivering, we can ask God to help us be discerning in the yeses we offer.
When we are honest about what we can do and don’t offer an inflated idea of our potential, we are able to take the small steps toward rebuilding trust. When we realize that we’ve overpromised, let’s be honest about it and ask for forgiveness. Honesty is the critical first step in restoration. And when others fail to meet our expectations, we can also offer compassion and tender mercy to them, giving them the chance that we hope for.
Restorer, thank you for the permission to say no to things without feeling guilty. Help me be selective about the promises I make so that I have the ability and resources to meet them.
Today is Bible study day in the neighborhood. My daughter-in-law is hosting at her house. She and Andrew have a bin-zebo where we'll meet today. YAY we can FINALLY gather outside again!
This email caught my attention as I prepare my heart for Bible study. As in all groups, some people are easier to love than others. We all love each other but sometimes we rub each other the wrong way. I don't like that feeling in myself especially when we're meeting to study God's word together. Leave it to God to speak to my heart about this before I meet with the ladies I love so much!!!
I don't have to fake it. God loves them IMMENSELY. All I have to do is get out of the way and let HIS love for them flow through me. Sometimes just being aware of the need for change is enough to let God make the changes in me that are needed. I don't have to fake being pleased to see them. All I have to do is surrender my heart to God. I love this line from this devotional. "When you find yourself laboring to love those around you, it is a sign that you need to turn your heart toward me in surrender!"
Here's to surrender. You probably can guess what song came to my mind now. I'll share it below.
As always, I covet your prayers for me and my family. With 2 babies and a wedding coming up, we sure can use prayers.
Lots of love,
Dawn
I Hear His Whisper...
Be true in love.
Drink in the deep delight of my heart today. Fill up on my unending kindness. Feast on my compassion. Does it feel like I’m pushing you too hard to receive? It is only because the more you receive, the more you have to give. I don’t want the well of your heart to run dry because you feel as if you have to stir up love on your own. First drink from my living waters, and you will find that you have more than enough to offer others.
When you find yourself laboring to love those around you, it is a sign that you need to turn your heart toward me in surrender. Let me water the garden of your heart with the showers of my mercy. There’s no need to strive to love. Your choices matter—of course they do. But you have the resource of unending love at hand. Let your soul come alive in the light of my kindness, and you will find that kindness flows freely from you. There’s no need to pretend. Just be true in love by allowing me to refill you constantly. Keep coming back to me and drinking up every chance you get.
Let the inner movement of your heart always be to love one another, and never play the role of an actor wearing a mask. Despise evil and embrace everything that is good and virtuous.
It's mother's day in my country. It's a day to ponder how much the love of our mothers has done for us. I know that's a bad sentence but it seems to pertain today.
My mother died suddenly on April 25, 2009. She worked all day and then slumped over dead in her doctor's office a little after 8:00 PM.
For weeks before that I had been preaching to her about the dangers of alternative sweeteners. Substances like aspartame, which the FDA approved of, are neurotoxins that mess with our brains. I will always remember her angrily saying to me, "So you think aspartame is building up in my body?" I calmly replied, "I know it is." Would she listen? A few months later she dropped dead. GRRRRRR
So I've been motherless for 17 years. I wish I could say I'm devastated with the loss of my mother but she was such a blockhead.
When God called us to home school our children, she threw a fit. When God called Robert and I to adult immersion, she threw a fit. When I kept having miscarriages, she threw a fit. When we wanted to go back into farming, she threw a fit. When I dropped out of my singing group because of laryngitis, she threw a fit. When we started keeping the Sabbath, she threw a fit.
I think you get the picture. My mother only approved of me when I fit into her narrow view of the world. When God was trying to grow me up into a natural healing practitioner, that didn't fit with her "The doctor knows best" brainwashing. Come to think of it, I can't think of too many things that I did that she approved of so I went on without her.
When she dropped dead, I cried very hard for several weeks. It was such a shock. My growing children said "Mom, why are you crying so hard? She was your biggest enemy." I had to ponder a bit as I saw their point. Then I replied, "Because now there is no more hope that we might have a good relationship."
After that, things got better. There were no more unrealistic expectations that some day mom would grow up and appreciate all that I was doing with my life. Then a friend gave me a book called TOXIC PARENTS and I started to really heal.
So yes, my mother taught me good things when I was growing up like how to garden and how to be a homemaker. What she couldn't teach me was that these things can REALLY show love when done with a heart full of love.
My mother loved herself and her comforts money could buy. Once she slapped me when I defiantly declared "Some people love their money more than they love their own family!" I guess it hit a nerve because it was the truth. Robert asked her to leave our house shortly after the slap. There was no apology for the slap--no checking if I was ok--no love.
So for those of you who really felt loved by your mothers, I am so happy for you. For the rest of you, may the Lord be the comfort that you need to be a loving person even though it wasn't modeled for you. The Lord is a GREAT lover of people. May we all be like Him especially when our Earthly parents failed us terribly.
If the word "Mother" does not bring all the warm fuzzies that others experience, this song is for you. May you find peace in being the person God knows you can be and wants you to be.
