"Please heal me, Lord!" That has been my cry for nearly 20 years (since 2006) when I lay dying from shingles on the brain. No doctor could figure out what was wrong with me but God knew! He brought me through the worst pain imaginable to the other side--to joy!
The shingles on the brain led to MS though. Every day I cry out to Him "Heal me Lord." I don't know why I'm still living. Some days I beg to be removed from the Earth but always He says "I have work for you to do!" Some day He won't, I'm sure of that, but for now I plod along.
It's easy to loose one's joy in all of that pain. That's why this message today is crucial to my keeping on pushing towards the high calling He has for me! Joy will come again.
Please pray for my family and I. With 2 babies and a wedding this Summer my energy reserves are being pushed to the limits. I know that prayer changes things, though, so I decided to ask you to pray for me again. Please pray that Father carries me through it all to HIS joy as He has done in the past.
"Please flood me with your peace and joy, dear Lord!"
Dawn
I Hear His Whisper...
Joy will come again.
I am the God of the brokenhearted. When the pain of life beats you up, I am your safe refuge. Hide yourself in me. Come away and rest in me. I am your Healer, and I am kind. I am merciful, and I am good. I love you, and I know how to heal your tender heart. Don’t doubt, beloved. Believe in my healing love. Believe in my mercy. Believe in my mighty power. Believe that I am worth trusting.
I am the King of glory. I am bigger and more magnificent than you can possibly imagine. Even when you fall or disappoint yourself, I am with you. Rest in my finished work. Open your heart to me. Will you? Will you let me flood you with healing and peace once again? I will lift you up and resuscitate your faith.
It’s okay to go through seasons of grief and weariness, but after I’ve strengthened you, take my hand and walk with me back into joy. I will not neglect you! Joy will come again. This is my promise to you.
Do it again! Those YAHWEH has set free will return to Zion and come celebrating with songs of joy! They will be crowned with never-ending joy! Gladness and joy will overwhelm them; despair and depression will disappear!
The election went well yesterday as far as the mechanics of running a fair and honest election are concerned. I felt good as I drove through a heavy rainstorm towards home. However, later when I saw the results I crashed.
Every one of those who followed the pollical process and jumped through every hoop to get their names on the ballot did NOT get elected. Those who took the governor's bribe and did not even attend our state convention WON THEIR ELECTIONS!!!
I don't see how we'll ever get a decent citizen to run for office again. They spend their money and weeks and weeks of their time but, if they're a true conservative in North Dakota, the political machine will run them over. HEAR OUR CRIES, OH LORD, FOR JUSTICE.
Today I am so weak I can hardly move. I thought just now that there may be a poem about feeling this way--one that would truly encourage us. This one is amazing and I pray it blesses you all.
Let us not grow weary in well doing. We have each other. These people who sell out to the deep state have no community, no fellowship, no peace knowing that how they use the power given to them has NOT been a blessing to those they are supposed to be serving.
If you are greatly discouraged today, too, then this is for you.
Dawn
A Christian Poem on Adrenal Fatigue
"My Strength Is Renewed in You"
O Lord, my weary soul, I come before You, Bearing the weight of days that never end. My body hums with fatigue, my mind is thin, Yet You are my rest, my peace, my friend.
I have labored long, my yoke was heavy, My burdens piled like mountains, high and steep. But You said, “Come to me, all who are heavy-laden,” And I found rest in You, my soul’s release OpenBible.info.
I have tried to run, to push through pain, To meet each day with strength I did not have. But You reminded me, “Do not be anxious,” And gave me peace that guards my heart and soul OpenBible.info.
My strength is not in will or might, But in Your Word, in prayer, in faith’s embrace. You renew my mind, You transform my life, And give me power when I am weak A Little R & R.
So I wait for You, I trust in You, For You give strength to the faint and weary. Even youths shall faint, even kings may fall, But those who wait on You shall rise anew OpenBible.info.
I will not grow weary of doing good, For in due season I will reap what’s sown. And in You, Lord, I find my peace, My hope, my joy, my endless home.
Amen.
This poem blends Scripture references to rest, peace, and renewal with the Christian understanding of adrenal fatigue as a call to rest, release, and reliance on God’s strength. It can be read as both a personal prayer and a meditative reflection for those struggling with chronic exhaustion.
I just got home from spending 2 1/2 weeks with my daughter's family. We were very disappointed when this baby also came early. She is their smallest baby yet and will most likely be in the hospital up to a month. PLEASE pray for this little baby who finally made it up to 5 pounds.
My job was to keep the 5 children at home fed, clothed, and safe. I'm very thankful for the team of baby's daddy; the other grandma; and the friend from church who has been coming into their home the past few months. Together we kept the household running somewhat smoothly--not like Mom does it but almost as good. :)
I had to come home because I'm working the election tomorrow as I had made that commitment assuming that baby would come closer to July. We also have our community picnic in the park this coming Sabbath which is one of my very favorite events of the year.
This year my son's fiancé's family will be joining us so that makes me a little nervous. They have not made the long trip here but now that Jacob and Sharon are engaged, I guess they decided to travel our way. There are 9 children in that family.
If I sound stressed, that's because I am. I missed my chiropractor appointment, when I was caring for my grandchildren, so that doesn't help with the pain. The 6 hour drive home yesterday, although uneventful, added to my stress. Today I'm working on the laundry piled up here and trying to rest up too. I sure could use your prayers.
Cora is doing well considering she just had her 5th C section. She knows her children at home are loved and cared for so she can focus on the tiny child in the NICU. I went in search of a poem about premie babies and I found 30 little prayers for these tiny human beings. I'll share 1 down below
I got to hold my granddaughter last week now that she's finally off of oxygen. I treasure this picture now that I'm back home and far away from those I love so much.
PLEASE JOIN ME IN PRAYING A LONG AND HAPPY LIFE FOR THIS LITTLE GIRL!!!
Thanks for always being there. I love you so much. You are the prayer team I so desperately need! This year I have 2 new grandbabies coming plus my son's wedding. Lord, please keep me calm so the pain stays manageable. May the Lord richly bless each one of you who prays for me and my family!
Dawn
Prayer for Progress Each Day
Heavenly Father, may each day bring progress, no matter how small. Let Your healing fill our baby’s body, one miracle at a time. In Jesus name Amen.
I am trying to stay calm. Once again my daughter is in the hospital with signs of going into labor 2 months early. We were hoping that the extra progesterone would keep baby in longer. To say the least, we are VEEEERRRRYYYYYYYYY disappointed.
This will be my daughter's 5th C section. PLEASE PRAY FOR HER AND BABY.
I wasn't planning on being gone for a month for several weeks yet. Now I have to hussle to get clothes washed for me and my guys. I had hoped to have some casseroles in the freezer for them before I made the 5 hour trip to my daughter's home. I told her that I cannot leave today.
The good news is that God provided a friend who has been coming in to their home 5 days a week for several months. The children know her and love her already. Cora said she asked her to come in early today. I sure hope she could as the other Grandma, who came in the middle of the night, will have her hands full with 5 children at home as they wake up wondering where their Mama is.
I know I should be getting the washing machine going but writing has always been my therapy. Also I know that many of my readers must be prayer warriors as I can feel the prayers coming when I ask for them. May our loving Heavenly Father bless you for keeping my daughter's family in your prayers for their needs are urgent.
I need prayers, too, as I have to make the long trip alone tomorrow if they need to take the baby today. My guys are still planting the crops so Robert is unable to get away until that is done. I'm still dealing with cancer in my right shoulder but it is mostly gone now. Like I said, "I am trying to stay calm."
When I taught my children to be pro-life, as they watched me have miscarriage after miscarriage, I never thought it would mean my daughter would have to go through 3 week NICU stays with premie babies. She is THE MOST AMAZING WOMAN I KNOW. How I wish she didn't have to go through this again.
More good news is that they gave her the steroid shot when she got to the hospital at 2:00 AM this morning. They'll give her a second one 24 hours later if the contractions can be stopped for that long. This rapidly develops the lungs of the baby so no oxygen is needed. Two babies back there was time to get both of those shots and the baby needed no oxygen unlike the baby before who didn't get the shot as it was the first premie. That baby needed oxygen for 10 days. With the last baby there was only time to get 1 shot in and that baby's lungs were fine too.
Please pray that this baby's lungs are fine if there is only time for 1 steroid shot.
Like I said before, I am trying to stay calm as I wait for news if they were able to get the contractions to stop. I'm praying that they stop and baby stays in a couple more weeks. That will help so much!!!
I'm not exactly sure what Father is saying to me through this devotional this morning. I often can tell what He is "Getting at" when I read these messages from THE PASSION TRANSLATION. I will need to ponder on this today.
Today is a special day in our family. My husband, Robert, turns 70 years old. I think I'll share what I posted on Facebook this morning about that. Please send him prayers for a joy-filled day as he drives tractor all day--doing what he loves the most!!!
Please join me in wishing my sweetie a happy 70th birthday today. We had Robert's party last Sabbath because he is happily driving tractor all day today. Maybe I'll catch a ride with him this afternoon. Thanks go out to our daughter-in-law for elegantly decorating the cake and our future daughter-in-law for making him a sour cream raisin pie which is one of his favorites.
Encounter God’s Heart…
People of Our Word
Following through on our promises is as important as the vows we make. In fact, it is even more valuable. If we do not faithfully do what we promise, then our word means nothing to others. Instead of building bridges of trust, we tear at the fabric of our own character. We cannot forget the power of keeping our promises. It is not too late to do what we said we would. Importantly, we should also consider how we can transform going forward. Instead of overpromising and underdelivering, we can ask God to help us be discerning in the yeses we offer.
When we are honest about what we can do and don’t offer an inflated idea of our potential, we are able to take the small steps toward rebuilding trust. When we realize that we’ve overpromised, let’s be honest about it and ask for forgiveness. Honesty is the critical first step in restoration. And when others fail to meet our expectations, we can also offer compassion and tender mercy to them, giving them the chance that we hope for.
Restorer, thank you for the permission to say no to things without feeling guilty. Help me be selective about the promises I make so that I have the ability and resources to meet them.
Today is Bible study day in the neighborhood. My daughter-in-law is hosting at her house. She and Andrew have a bin-zebo where we'll meet today. YAY we can FINALLY gather outside again!
This email caught my attention as I prepare my heart for Bible study. As in all groups, some people are easier to love than others. We all love each other but sometimes we rub each other the wrong way. I don't like that feeling in myself especially when we're meeting to study God's word together. Leave it to God to speak to my heart about this before I meet with the ladies I love so much!!!
I don't have to fake it. God loves them IMMENSELY. All I have to do is get out of the way and let HIS love for them flow through me. Sometimes just being aware of the need for change is enough to let God make the changes in me that are needed. I don't have to fake being pleased to see them. All I have to do is surrender my heart to God. I love this line from this devotional. "When you find yourself laboring to love those around you, it is a sign that you need to turn your heart toward me in surrender!"
Here's to surrender. You probably can guess what song came to my mind now. I'll share it below.
As always, I covet your prayers for me and my family. With 2 babies and a wedding coming up, we sure can use prayers.
Lots of love,
Dawn
I Hear His Whisper...
Be true in love.
Drink in the deep delight of my heart today. Fill up on my unending kindness. Feast on my compassion. Does it feel like I’m pushing you too hard to receive? It is only because the more you receive, the more you have to give. I don’t want the well of your heart to run dry because you feel as if you have to stir up love on your own. First drink from my living waters, and you will find that you have more than enough to offer others.
When you find yourself laboring to love those around you, it is a sign that you need to turn your heart toward me in surrender. Let me water the garden of your heart with the showers of my mercy. There’s no need to strive to love. Your choices matter—of course they do. But you have the resource of unending love at hand. Let your soul come alive in the light of my kindness, and you will find that kindness flows freely from you. There’s no need to pretend. Just be true in love by allowing me to refill you constantly. Keep coming back to me and drinking up every chance you get.
Let the inner movement of your heart always be to love one another, and never play the role of an actor wearing a mask. Despise evil and embrace everything that is good and virtuous.
It's mother's day in my country. It's a day to ponder how much the love of our mothers has done for us. I know that's a bad sentence but it seems to pertain today.
My mother died suddenly on April 25, 2009. She worked all day and then slumped over dead in her doctor's office a little after 8:00 PM.
For weeks before that I had been preaching to her about the dangers of alternative sweeteners. Substances like aspartame, which the FDA approved of, are neurotoxins that mess with our brains. I will always remember her angrily saying to me, "So you think aspartame is building up in my body?" I calmly replied, "I know it is." Would she listen? A few months later she dropped dead. GRRRRRR
So I've been motherless for 17 years. I wish I could say I'm devastated with the loss of my mother but she was such a blockhead.
When God called us to home school our children, she threw a fit. When God called Robert and I to adult immersion, she threw a fit. When I kept having miscarriages, she threw a fit. When we wanted to go back into farming, she threw a fit. When I dropped out of my singing group because of laryngitis, she threw a fit. When we started keeping the Sabbath, she threw a fit.
I think you get the picture. My mother only approved of me when I fit into her narrow view of the world. When God was trying to grow me up into a natural healing practitioner, that didn't fit with her "The doctor knows best" brainwashing. Come to think of it, I can't think of too many things that I did that she approved of so I went on without her.
When she dropped dead, I cried very hard for several weeks. It was such a shock. My growing children said "Mom, why are you crying so hard? She was your biggest enemy." I had to ponder a bit as I saw their point. Then I replied, "Because now there is no more hope that we might have a good relationship."
After that, things got better. There were no more unrealistic expectations that some day mom would grow up and appreciate all that I was doing with my life. Then a friend gave me a book called TOXIC PARENTS and I started to really heal.
So yes, my mother taught me good things when I was growing up like how to garden and how to be a homemaker. What she couldn't teach me was that these things can REALLY show love when done with a heart full of love.
My mother loved herself and her comforts money could buy. Once she slapped me when I defiantly declared "Some people love their money more than they love their own family!" I guess it hit a nerve because it was the truth. Robert asked her to leave our house shortly after the slap. There was no apology for the slap--no checking if I was ok--no love.
So for those of you who really felt loved by your mothers, I am so happy for you. For the rest of you, may the Lord be the comfort that you need to be a loving person even though it wasn't modeled for you. The Lord is a GREAT lover of people. May we all be like Him especially when our Earthly parents failed us terribly.
If the word "Mother" does not bring all the warm fuzzies that others experience, this song is for you. May you find peace in being the person God knows you can be and wants you to be.
Recently I've been going through many changes. My 2 daughters will have babies this Summer and I just learned last night about another big change coming this year.
Not only that but next week my husband turns 70 years old. It's hit us both hard as we ponder our family moving on without us a bit more every year.
Last Sabbath Robert and I went walking through the local cemetery. It was interesting to see who was all buried there. We both felt the need to talk about where we'd like to be buried some day.
This man I've been wife to for 45 years is my soulmate for sure. We walked around the tombstones and remembered the times we'd spent with several whose bodies are there. In our minds we were pondering where we would like to be buried when it's our turn to go to our rewards.
We spent several hours walking together and alone. I was praying for wisdom to understand what we were doing there. Neither of us is sick. Lots of people turn 70 but I vividly recalled the fatalistic doom that settled over me when I was turning 50.
Here we are 28 years later as God saw fit to keep us here. Yet we know that we won't be here forever so we walked and talked--or didn't.
It amazed me how we both ended up under this huge Ponderosa Pine tree just like we used to have in our yard years ago before the tornado came through. We talked then about how close it was to our field the Lord just gave us--how our sons could drive by Spring and Fall and see us there and know how much we did to give them a good life!!
It was kind of sad but peaceful too. We've been different since then--better and closer. When you're in your 20s, people are invincible. In your 30s, you're a new parent and just tired. In your 40s, people are starting to get a hold of parenting. In your 50s, you end up dealing with your parent's decline. In your 60s you're working hard to make sure your descendants have a good life. In your 70s? I guess we'll find out if the Lord continues blessing us with more years.
With everything going on in the world, it seems insignificant that Robert and I picked our final resting place together. We do everything together and have for 45+ years. Some day we may not. That thought led me to this poem.
Robert is a good forgiver. I haven't been as fluent in forgiveness as my husband is. I've watched him, though, and his peace and calm have inspired me to lay it all down little by little. I hope this poem will inspire each of my readers to lay down your grudges and abuses too.
My faith has been challenged as this tumor in my shoulder has been hanging around nearly half a year. I've conquered cancer over 30 times at home with herbs and other natural healing tools. This time it's been a real bugger but I think I've got it now.
I saw recently about a supplement called SOURSOP. Many people have had success with it so I ordered some. This is my 5th day on it and the pain is definitely lessening. YAY
The reason I don't tell folks, when I first sense that cancer is back, is because I can't take all of the "Have you seen your doctor?" First of all, I don't have a doctor other than the Great Physician. It just adds stress to have people worrying about my decision to help my body conquer it as it has many times before.
If you're there, too, it has been helpful in the past to answer these sincere concerns with a question. "Do I have cancer because I have a lack of chemotherapy drugs?" NOPE.
So I've been resting a lot and the Lord led me to an amazing tool that I won't share about now as I need to get to making supper. This is not so much a healing tool as an empowering mentality. More on that later,
So I leave you with this devotional from the good folks over at THE PASSION TRANSLATION. Of course you can guess the song that came to mind if you grew up in the hymns like me.
I still covet your prayers for total restoration to health.
Dawn
I Hear His Whisper...
Faith is your victory.
Faith is the victory that overcomes the power of this world. Walk in the paths I have chosen for you, and no one will be able to hinder you for long. Faith opens the doors and sets you in the right place at the right time. You will be amazed at the opportunities that greet you as you’re led by my Spirit.
Many are my servants who step out with small faith and witness me working a great work. Never measure your faith by your fears, but insist that your fears submit to your faith. Your enemies fight in vain. Do not be discouraged by what can be seen with your eyes, but be filled with faith as you set your gaze on me. Faith is the force that lifts you above your enemies, because it enables you to see clearly. Embrace truth as your best friend. Marry wisdom, for she will be your perfect partner. Cherish my peace, and you will be kept far above the fray. Root yourself in my love, and faith will be the natural result.
Every child of God overcomes the world, for our faith is the victorious power that triumphs over the world. So who are the world conquerors, defeating its power? Those who believe that Jesus is the Son of God.
I've been broken my whole life. From the incest to the years as a farmer's wife complete with droughts and low prices for what we produce. From the miscarriages to shingles on the brain to MS.
I think you get the picture. I've always thought there was something wrong with me My family members have said "Why do so many bad things keep happening to you?"
It's been hard to want to keep living with all of the pain. It's hard to want to keep living with all of the sorrow and grief. So many times I have begged the Father to take me home and every time He says "You have work to do yet." sigh
This song has me thinking about all of this. Is it really BETTER to be BROKEN? I'm going to have to ponder that but this song sure has me wondering about my feeling useless because I am a cripple. Can God really use me yet?
If you're there with me, here's a hug. I am glad you're still here!!! We need each other.
Here's to God putting us back together just the way He needs us to be.
Today Dr. McGee started the study of Genesis. Until I can figure out how to embed the link into each post, I'll have to share it like this. Hopefully it will take you to the page where you can listen to today's lesson.
I will say that, many years ago I was introduced to Dr. McGee's teachings. I'm sure it was the enemy who tried to keep me from listening intently. I know better now as I don't want to miss a single nugget of truth.
I really like how Dr. McGee doesn't act as if he knows everything about the Bible. He knows a lot but only God knows everything. Still, Dr. McGee encourages people to see that we can continue learning more about God from His word by reading and studying it over and over. I suppose this is because, as we grow and mature, we can grasp more of what's being taught.
Here's a song about the value of hiding God's word in our hearts. I learned this song when I was a little girl and it does my heart good to hear my grandchildren singing it too. Let's stand alone on the word of God!
How are you all doing today? It's starting to warm up here in North Dakota. Yesterday the temp reached SEVENTY DEGREES!!! The snow is all melted and there is mud everywhere. Being we live in a very dry part of the country, we are thankful for these late snows that brought much needed moisture.
Yesterday I hosted our community ladies for our monthly Bible study. We studied Ephesians 2. God has much to say about salvation being a gift from God. This means that we need to come to Him as we are. There is no amount of cleaning ourselves up to impress God as His word says our righteousness is as filthy rags to Him!
All we need to do is admit that we're sinners and ask Him to forgive us our sins and put them all under Jesus shed blood on the cross. Then invite in the Holy Spirit who changes us to be the children that God always knew we could be. That's why He loves us so much--he sees the difference that He can make in our lives when we invite Him in.
I have a new project in this regard. I've been getting irritating phone calls on my cell. They call and say nothing sometimes 5 or 6 times a day. I was getting perturbed from all of the interruptions when I asked the Lord what to do about it. He shared an idea with me and it changed everything.
Now, when a strange number calls me, I talk to them. I tell them the plan of salvation. I tell them that Jesus died on the cross for all of our sins. I tell them that all we need to do is to tell Jesus that we know we're sinners. Then ask Him to forgive our sins and put them under His shed blood. The last step is to ask God the Father to erase all of the charges in our books of life that satan is using as grounds to attack us.
As you might imagine, not everyone listens to the end. I'm surprised, though, how many listen for quite a while. When they hang up on my message, I pray for them to accept Christ. THEY have made ME a missionary and I don't even have to leave home. HOW COOL IS THAT? God makes even cripples like me useful for His purposes and I so do love Him for that!!!
The main reason I'm writing today is to share an opportunity we all have. I'm copying from my Facebook page.
The past couple of years I've learned so much by listening to this daily broadcast. Dr. J. Vernon McGee has gone to live with Jesus but his teachings go on. They call it the "Bible bus" and people listen around the world. It takes Dr. McGee 5 years to go through the Bible. He just finished Revelations and tomorrow he begins anew in Genesis. Perhaps you want to get on the Bible bus with me?
You can go to ttb.org to find where to listen on your local Christian radio station or you can get the app on your phone.
I have learned so much about God's faithfulness by listening to Dr. McGee's broadcasts. He has a wealth of knowledge about life during Bible times that brings the Word of God to life. Tomorrow he starts in Genesis 1.
Guess what. I just found the message for tomorrow. This is giving me an idea. I've been praying for something useful to share daily with you all. What if I were to share the Bible bus message for the day here? Well, listen to this and see what you think.
To quote Dr. McGee as he closes each lesson "May God richly bless you my beloved!"
How many of you were told "Shame on you" for some minor mistake when you were growing up? Did you know that shame is the LOWEST vibration on Earth?
The reason putting shame on others is because it makes the person the problem and not what was done. Look, we're ALL sinners and we all know it. For a parent to put shame on a child they are crippling the child for life. Bosses shouldn't do this either.
Nobody should put themselves in the place of God to put shame on someone else. In fact, as we learn in today's devotional, even GOD doesn't shame people. God knows we're sinners and yet HE loves us. This takes some thinking as we ponder how we treat other people when they dissapoint us or sin against us.
God says "Release shame to me." How do you do that? For me, I see a balloon full of what I'm trying to release to God--shame, hatred, jealousy. Whatever is keeping me from feeling His love, I see as filling a balloon that sits right in front of my face. I look through that balloon and see all of life as hopeless.
You can do this. See all of the ugly emotions that you don't seem to be able to get rid of as filling a balloon. Now see yourself holding that balloon. Now open your hand and let it go. Watch it soar up to Heaven until you can't see it any more. That's how I release the things that keep me from fully serving the Lord. You may have another way. The point is to give it to God. This will please Him sooo much.
Gotta go make supper.
I Hear His Whisper...
Release shame to me.
My blood is the fire of purity that washes every sin away. To hold on to shame is to refuse the gift that I’ve given you—the gift of freedom. Maintaining those feelings of guilt won’t make you a better person. Accept my forgiveness and forgive yourself, and I will heal your heart and set you free.
Put sin behind you. Once you’ve repented for what you’ve done or neglected to do, I’ve forgiven you. If you haven’t asked for forgiveness, you only need to ask, and I will pour it out like rain. My mercy is never-ending, and there is nothing my mercy does not cover. I don’t want you to live with a mindset of What if I would have…? or What if I wouldn’t have…? Don’t allow the past to hold such a strong grip on you that you forget the price I paid to set you free. Guilt is a trap of the enemy—a ploy to keep you so focused on yourself and your mistakes that you lose sight of my grace. If you will come to me today and give me your shame, I will heal your heart. Forgive yourself and embrace my grace.
