Today is a "Big" day in my life. At any rate, I've never lived a day like this before. You see, ten years ago today my mother died. She worked all day and then slumped in the doctor's office about 8:30 that night and was gone. No notice--no goodbye.
I've been looking through her photos trying to find one that seemed the most like her. I like this one! Looking through mom's photo albums got me thinking about how she affected my life--how she shaped me to be a lover of Jesus.
My mom was pretty natural in her health care just like her mom before her--just like me.
My mom loved to garden--my goodness are there a lot of garden photos. She also had a green thumb with house plants that I wish I had inherited!!
My mom loved to cook. I wish I could say that I have her passion for creating beautiful meals but I don't. I do like looking at cook books though.
My mom loved to sing--I have lots of photos of her singing with dad or me or lots of other people.
My mom loved animals. We had a long string of animals in our house and yard. I will always remember the ducks that we had in the bathroom and how they made a parade through the house quacking, "Weather, warm up so we can go outside!"
One of the things that I hadn't really thought about, but which was VERY obvious in her photo albums, is that my mom LOVED to entertain guests in her home!! OH MY GOODNESS!! I remember one time we invited the entire basketball team over for my brother's birthday. WOW
The most import things about my mom, though, is that she loved the Lord!! With all that life threw at her, she was still faithful to the Lord and praised Him with her beautiful voice and piano playing often. I can recall her sitting down to play piano and sing with me on nights when we were waiting for they guys to come home from the farm. Mom passed on her love of praising God through her music to me and it comforts me as it must have comforted her too. I pray I can pass it on too!
Goodbye Mom. I look forward to seeing you when I get there!!
Cora is packing up their house in preparation to move to MN. The guys are in their Spring rush at the plant and out on the farms. My lilies are popping up so I can no longer deny that Winter is over. Can you believe that I would NOT be welcoming Spring this year.
Well it has to do with the fact that Michael is taking his family into the wonderful life of a dairy farmer "In the Spring". I started my married life that way and it is HELL!!! You can't go anywhere because the cows must be milked twice a day 365 days a year.
So, it's all been said over and over and even this could not make them change their minds.
So what am I left with?
I've begged God to change their minds for over a year. I've worn my close friends out by requesting them to pray also. Those closest to me have talked to the young couple out of their concerns for me and my declining health PLUS a sincere concern for this special young family.
Still this is what they are choosing to do.............................................
So what I going to do with all of these frustrations? What can I do? I have done all that I could to help them know how much I love them. Now I must find a way to show that I'll love them even though they're doing something which seems oh so stupid!
The Lord gave me this to ponder on today. It seems just the thing that I'm needing. If I choose to be bitter the rest of my life, I drive myself AWAY FROM THE LORD!!! WOW That's the last thing that I need right now. I mean, Heaven would sure be nice but what about if He insists that I keep staying here?
I share these thoughts with hopes that they may bless someone out there. Let's run to Him together. Perhaps He'll heal us in this way.
So sad,
Dawn
PS Check out the author's name. I'd call that a God thing!
"Choose Intimacy Over Bitterness" Dawn Hill, Bristol,
VA
Out of my thirty-nine years in this fleshly tent on planet Earth, eighteen of
those years have been spent pursuing the Lord and knowing Him more. Jesus Christ
found me at twenty one years old because I was lost. Over the years, I have
suffered my fair share of personal blows and heartaches, both before and after
being born again, but we are told that we will face trials and tribulations, but
to take heart because Jesus has overcome the world.
In the past four years God has been teaching me more and more how to draw
closer to Him, even when it seems easier to retreat in times of personal
warfare. I can remember in 2015 standing in my garage and crying out to the Lord
during a very dark time. Seasons and situations come like this and instead of
reacting, we, as the Bride of Christ, must learn to respond, and not only that,
but we must run toward intimacy with Him and not toward vindication or the
entangling web of bitterness.
You will find out where you are in your
personal relationship with God by where you run when Hell rages and flesh
manifests.
Do Not Be Intimate with Unforgiveness
One of the greatest genes of the Father that we must have ingrained
in our spiritual DNA as sons of God, is forgiveness. We are repeatedly
instructed to forgive and to not grow bitter. The Word of God tells us to not to
sin in our anger (Ephesians 4:26). Forgiveness is freedom.
One thing I am learning in my walk with the Lord is that I cannot
afford to be intimate with unforgiveness. It is a redirection of
affection that should be surrendered to God. Intimacy with Christ is not simply
in the times when all is well. It is also in the times when you have to speak by
faith, "It is well."
Even if through tears you must say, "It is well," then do
it. Refuse to curse and refuse to water unforgiveness. It is quite easy to give
ourselves over to soulish reactions because it is intoxicating to our soul. It
is a massive, spiritual fertilizer that will allow a bitter root to grow while
causing the field to stink. When you go from glory to glory, you are being
transformed to emanate His nature more and more.
I know that this is not a flashy message, but it is a prophetic word for the
Body of Christ at large. This is part of the Good News. Jesus has given us a new
covenant and part of the covenant calls us higher into His ways.
Intimacy is the
high call and in order to demonstrate true and pure intimacy with Him, we live
out what we have heard in the secret place. Are you hearing retribution in the
secret place? Are you hearing retaliation in the secret place? In all humility,
I pose this statement: Things like this are not found in the secret place. In
the secret places of our hearts, only the light of Christ must be to illuminate and
push back darkness so that healing can come.
The Answer by His Word and Spirit
One morning fairly recently, the Holy Spirit directed me to read Matthew 18
in its entirety. As I read this chapter, I noticed that it went from
demonstrating humility as a child to dealing with sin and forgiveness in the
Kingdom of God. After reading the chapter, I knew that God was wanting to do
surgery on His people, myself included.
Years ago, I had to make a decision to forgive one of my close family members
for some rejection I experienced from them. The Lord reminded me, in a time when
that rejection was made publicly evident, to bless and to not curse, and to pray
for those who would mistreat. He reminded me to forgive and to move forward.
As I personally go through seasons that would be better with a convenient
fast forward button, there are lessons in the difficult times. The lessons come
in the growth of asking God to examine my heart and to bend me to His ways. The
relationship grows when we run to Him and not away from Him.
When you are truly intimate with God, things are exposed that need exposing.
In those moments, areas of brokenness are made whole and pruning can come forth.
We must allow God to not only cut the branch of bitterness if it is there, but
to strip it out at the root. Let's yield to the digging up of even a seed of
resentment because, if that seed takes root, resentment begins to grow within
us.
Beloved, run to the Bridegroom in every season. Let the weight of glorious
intimacy with Him markyou. I believe that part of the cleansing needed in the
Body of Christ is a deluge of forgiveness of others and of self. Along with that
will come confessing our sins, one to another, and demonstrating real love which
can only come from the Father.
If you have battled in this time, forgive and recognize who the real enemy is
around you. We must resist the desire to echo how the world handles relational
issues. Forgive others, regardless if youever hear "I'm sorry" from that
person. Move forward and embrace the Lord's holy nature. He is the greatest
refuge you will ever know, and knowing Him requires forgiveness.
Dawn Hill is a writer and blogger also known as
the Lovesick Scribe. The inspiration behind Lovesick Scribe came about a few
years ago when she started keeping a journal, following a powerful encounter
with God's presence. Since that time, she has faithfully kept her journal and
ministered at times on things that the Lord has given her to release or to
meditate upon. Dawn is a wife, a mother, a prophetic voice, and above all else,
a lover of His presence. She desires to stir up passion on the inside of you to
glorify the Lord, to fall in love with Him, and to hear His voice for yourself.
Dawn Hill's heart aches for His presence, and she desires to share His
heartbeat with you so that your heart can sync its rhythm with His.
I am sick of myself and sick of this depression. I am weary from worry and faint from fasting.
I had to DO SOMETHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I first watched this movie when I was an ugly little abused girl who just wanted to die to end all of the pain! Is it really possible that a little nobody can become the object of the love and devotion of a Prince?
Yes, it is. The Prince of Peace loved me so much that He died for me!! I praise God for making me aware of this when I was only 11 years old--almost 50 years ago. It's made all the difference!
Today is the day that many in the world grieve the death of Jesus on the cross. I am one of them. There is no more terrible thing than to live our lives without the constant companionship and friendship of our loving Savior who died for us. OR IS THERE?
What happens to those who continually reject Jesus Christ as their personal Savior? What happens when people don't understand that the perfect one came to Earth to die on a Roman cross for OUR sins?
I can't bear to think of anyone going to the place spoken of in this video. Never-the-less, many do go there and it's unnecessary. WHY? because Jesus made a way for ALL people to liv with Him in Heaven yet they refuse to admit that they need a Savior.
I pray that this video will encourage all of my readers who have not yet given their lives to the Lord to do so today! I have never met anyone who said, "I regret giving my life to the Lord." That's because His sweet love and peace are the only things that can get us through all of the woes of this life.
Did you know that after your death, if you reject Jesus your entire life, you will go to hell? It's not God's fault. He sent His son to Earth to shed his innocent blood to pay for our sins. ALL WE HAVE TO DO IS ASK HIM TO FORGIVE US OF OUR SINS AND COME INTO OUR LIVES AND TAKE OVER!!
I am deeply grieved for the farmers of our country. Farmers are the least likely of anyone I know to expect a handout as they are fiercely independent and wonderful problem solvers. However when a small farmer is forced to compete with a BIG corporation, what chance does he/she have to win?
This video is a part of the article I shared in my last post. Hopefully, you'll see their plight and begin to pray for these hurting ones on farms scattered all over our country. Especially pray for my daughter whose husband shares this dream and is pondering buying his folk's dairy!
Love to all you dairy farmers out there. I started my married life married to one too. This is soo hard to think that people can't even do this when they want to do it!!
SMITHFIELD, Ky. — All Curtis Coombs wanted was to raise cows and run his family’s dairy farm in this slice of Kentucky hill country, less than 35 miles from Louisville. But a few weeks ago, he was forced to sell his milking herd of 82 cows, putting an end to his family’s nearly 70-year dairy business.
On a rain-drenched Monday, Coombs, his father and his uncle struggled to shove their last 13 cows into a trailer destined for auction and slaughter. As the earthy smell of manure filled the air, the men yelled for the Holsteins to move and urged them forward with the whack of a plastic stick.
The animals mooed their dissent but finally boarded the trailer. Coombs, 30, flung aside his stick and stormed a few yards away, breathing heavily. His family members wiped their brows and looked at Curtis and then the cows, which were sold for their meat at half their worth.
“It’s just hard to believe it’s over,” Coombs said later, choking up. “As long as you was milking cows, you always thought there was a hope you'd get back to it. At this point, even if there's a Hail Mary pass, we're done.”
Coombs is one of more than 100 dairy farmers across seven states who learned in March that they would lose their contract with Dean Foods, which runs a milk processing plant in Louisville that mainly served Walmart. Dean Foods is shutting the plant at the end of the summer because Walmart is building its own processing facility in Fort Wayne, Indiana, and will work directly with dairy farms there instead.
Curtis Coombs carries buckets of milk while feeding Holstein calves at his family's dairy farm in Smithfield, Kentucky.Luke Sharrett / for NBC News
Many of the Kentucky dairy farmers who sold their milk to Dean Foods have not yet found anyone else to buy it instead — and like Coombs, they could soon have to sell their cows. They are just the latest of more than 42,000 dairy farmers who have gone out of business since 2000, casualties of an outdated business model, pricey farm loans and pressures from corporate agriculture.
There were nearly 650,000 dairy farms in the U.S. in 1970, but just 40,219 remained at the end of 2017, according to the U.S. Department of Agriculture. Cows are producing more milk than ever, but they’re consolidated on bigger, more efficient farms. In 1987, half of American dairy farms had 80 or fewer cows; by 2012, that figure had risen to 900 cows.
Small dairy farmers, an aging population, were some of the last U.S. holdouts against the farming industry’s pressure to grow or die — but it’s unclear how much longer they can last. Hope grew when President Donald Trump tweeted support for the dairy industry in early June at the G-7 meeting in Canada, but experts and farmers say Trump mistakenly focused his ire on trade and tariffs rather than an American industry that is increasingly hostile to small-time operators.
Joe Schroeder takes calls from dozens of struggling farmers each month at Farm Aid, an organization founded by musician Willie Nelson to keep family farmers on their land. Small dairy farmers make up a third to half of those calls, Schroeder said. The farmers, who often do the milking themselves or with family members and work 12 to 16 hours a day, tell him about the electricity being turned off and not having money for groceries. They ask advice on declaring Chapter 12 — bankruptcy designed for farmers.
“I don’t see anything that would give them hope at this point,” Schroeder said. “The best advice I can give to these folks, dairy farmers, is to sell out as fast as you can.”
The milk industry in crisis
At Walmart, shoppers in Kentucky can buy a gallon of milk for as little as 78 cents, but that’s far less than what the company paid for it or even what it cost the farmer to produce. Stores often sell milk at a loss since it’s a staple and customers may pick up more profitable items as well.
On average, farmers spend $1.92 to produce a gallon of milk and make $1.32 when they sell it to processors. This is the fourth year in a row that farmers’ milk prices have dipped below the cost of production.
“We could buy all the gallons of milk out of the grocery store, bring them home to our bulk tank, pour it in there and sell it back to them and make more money,” said Carilynn Coombs, Curtis’s wife.
Low milk prices set off a cycle in which farmers produce more milk to ensure they’re bringing in enough money to operate, leading to dairy products flooding the market and prices plummeting still further. Even when the price of milk rises, however, the cycle doesn’t end — farmers keep milking as much as they can to cash in before the price drops again. It’s a never-ending catch-22 of competition that is running dairy farmers aground.
Walmart’s decision to build its own milk processing plant highlights another issue for farmers. In a trend that extends back to the 1970s but ramped up over the past decade, corporate agriculture is increasingly taking control of all stages of milk production, which can leave small farmers with fewer places to sell their milk, said Maury Cox, executive director of the Kentucky Dairy Development Council, an advocacy group. Corporations opening milk processing plants would rather work with fewer large dairy farms than thousands of small ones, Cox added.
“What do you do in this situation when you don’t have a market for your milk?”
That, Cox said, leaves farmers asking: “What do you do in this situation when you don’t have a market for your milk?
The question is of particular relevance to dairy farmers in the Southeast, where the industry is steeped in a certain regional irony.
While there is a surplus of milk nationwide, Kentucky and the Southeast face a net deficit of 41 billion pounds of milk annually, according to Mark Stephenson, a University of Wisconsin dairy economist. That means that even as dairy farmers in these states struggle, grocery stores there are importing milk in refrigerated trucks from the Midwest.
Why are Kentucky milk farmers being frozen out of the local market? Part of the answer lies with powerful dairy cooperatives, groups of farmers who work together to sell their milk. Dairy Farmers of America, the nation’s largest dairy cooperative, has an incentive to maintain the milk deficit in the Southeast because it gives the group’s members in the Midwest a market.
Fourteen Kentucky farmers recently tried to join the cooperative, but they were denied because the group saw them as competition, the farmers told NBC News.
John Wilson, the group’s senior vice president and chief fluid marketing officer, said that the co-op recognized “the dairy farmers in Kentucky who have been displaced face a tough situation,” but did not provide a clear reason for denying their membership.
“Membership decisions are handled on a regional basis and evaluated based on a number of factors,” Wilson said, “including farms in the area, milk volumes, supply-and-demand conditions and milk quality.”
How Canada milks differently
The struggles of American dairy farmers haven’t extended to their peers north of the border. Canada’s government runs a supply management system that controls the nation’s dairy, egg and poultry output. Canada uses the system to enforce domestic production quotas as well as limit its dairy imports and exports, which keeps prices steady and guarantees farmers a stable income — though it has a larger impact on consumers’ wallets.
Canadian dairy farmers, however, have enough extra money to fix buildings, buy new equipment and even take vacations, said John Kalmey, 66, a small-dairy farmer in Shelbyville, Kentucky, who is on the brink of ending his family’s 80 years in the dairy business and who has spoken to and visited farmers in Canada.
Small-dairy farmers in the U.S. like Kalmey, who average a salary of just over $20,000 a year if they can afford to give themselves one at all, marvel at those luxuries.
“I think it’s a shame we don’t have that same [system] here,” Kalmey said.
The disparity has also caught the attention of Trump, who placed blame for the floundering American dairy industry at Canada’s feet during the G-7 conference in Quebec. Trump attacked Prime Minister Justin Trudeau — calling him “dishonest & weak” — for Canada’s dairy tariff that keeps its farmers afloat. “Our Tariffs are in response to his of 270% on dairy!” Trump tweeted.
Kalmey and other dairy farmers, though, do not believe that an end to the dairy tariffs would be a solution. If anything, removing Canada’s protections would leave dairy farmers there in the same boat as those in the U.S. Some farmers worried that Trump is more likely to cause a trade war than open a new market for them — they fear losing the limited export market that the U.S. currently has, which could cause the price of milk to drop further.
And trade isn’t the main source of the industry’s difficulties: Dairy exports were up 2 percent between 2016 and 2017, according to the USDA. For 2018, the USDA forecasts 7 percent growth.
Loss of historic farms causes economic ripples
Gary Rock, 59, lives in Hodgenville, Kentucky, an area of rolling hills and loose rock fences, on a farm that has been passed down through his family for 300 years. After Dean Foods dropped his contract amid Walmart’s expansion, he expects that he will be the last generation to ever milk a cow on this land.
The past few years haven’t been easy. In 2012, Rock rebuilt his farm after it was hit by a tornado that destroyed all the buildings except the one where he milks his cows. The following year, he lost his legs in a tractor accident, but he kept farming. Then his only employee left after the Dean Foods announcement, so Rock began milking the cows by himself. Now, he must consider selling off portions of his farm to stay afloat. “That is not what America is about, I’ll tell you that right now,” Rock said.
Gary Rock's farm has been passed down through his family for the past 300 years. Luke Sharrett / for NBC News
It’s not just farm families who are affected. Many of the half-dozen farmers NBC News interviewed in Kentucky pointed out that their dairy operations contribute to the local economy, from the farm equipment and feed they buy to the veterinary bills they pay. A two-year Pew Commission report found that small farms made almost 95 percent of their farm-based purchases locally, and a 2016 University of California Davis study concluded that those dollars have twice the impact locally as larger farms.
The closure of farms eliminates jobs in adjacent industries, such as manufacturing, and reduces the population of already struggling areas, said Stephenson, the dairy economist.
Things are about to get worse. Dean Foods announced last week that it would close another milk processing plant, in northern Minnesota, affecting about 50 employees and an unknown number of farmers. And the company’s management recently said it plans to close seven more plants across the country, according to John Stovall, the union president of Teamsters Local 738, which represents the employees at the closing Dean Foods plant in Louisville.
Dean Foods did not respond to requests for comment.
Walmart said it announced plans to open the Indiana plant in 2016, so the Louisville closure should not have come as a surprise. The Indiana plant opened on June 13 and provides about 300 jobs, according to Walmart. The company plans to work with 30 local farmers and supply milk to 500 stores in Indiana, Illinois, Ohio, Michigan and Kentucky.
Molly Blakeman, a spokeswoman for Walmart, said she was unsure of the size of the 30 farms that would replace the more than 100 farms that supplied Dean Foods. Walmart’s goal was to get its Great Value brand closer to local dairies, she said.
“We’re hoping to find efficiencies that will find great cost savings for our customers,” she said. “That’s what Walmart is great at.”
Growing depression over a bleak future
Bob Klingenfus, 69, who has milked cows for 54 years not far from the Coombs family, said friends, family and even the guy who sells him cattle feed have called to check up on him since he lost his contract with Dean Foods because they’re worried he might be depressed.
Klingenfus knows why they’re calling. Some dairy cooperatives have started to send suicide hotline numbers along with the farmers’ checks for milk. Agri-Mark Inc., a dairy cooperative in the Northeast with about 1,000 members, started sending the numbers in January after a third member died of suicide in as many years.
A recent Centers for Disease Control and Prevention report found that from 2005 to 2015, suicide rates grew by 30 percent in half of rural counties, a larger increase than in urban areas. It’s an issue that the House and Senate are trying to address in the Farm Bill by introducing the Farm and Ranch Stress Assistance Network, which would offer mental health resources.
Farmers who lose their business often go through stages of grief that some describe as similar to losing a close family member, said Michael Rosmann, a clinical psychologist and Iowa farmer who has counseled dairy farmers.
There's not much in my world these days that's NOT in upheaval. I've been meaning to share photos of the flooding in Nebraska to urge you to pray for those farmers who may never plant another crop. I can't stop thinking about the farmers in Iowa whose grain bins popped open when their grain got wet and swelled. Now all of that income is lost! Besides all of that I read that over a million baby calves died in all of the effects of the blizzards followed by rainstorms. HOW CAN THOSE RANCHERS GO ON WITHOUT THEIR LIVESTOCK???
I am constantly aware, though, that this blog is named "A Ray of Hope." Somehow I must find some hope to share with all of you. Where will it come from with so much evil in our world? The state of New York says that a woman can decide WHILE SHE IS IN LABOR that she doesn't want the child. Then a doctor can cut the baby into pieces and kill it. If it somehow lives, the mother has the right to watch it die right beside her if she so chooses. Where is the hope in that??
Then we have the Southern border of our country which has very little protection from the ever growing caravans of people who think that they can come here and get a free lunch. The biggest upset for me is our Congress people who don't even see the need to protect our country from all of these beggars coming in with their diseases and crime.
WHAT IS THE MATTER WITH THEM? Instead of working to protect our country from destruction, they worry about cows farting. What kind of idiots do we have making our laws?? I realize that many of our Congress people are amazing but how do the rest of them get elected? They can't even think!!!
Did you hear that all of the Democrats who are running for President refused to protect babies born alive after a botched abortion? That's INFANTICIDE!!! Killing of babies and old people is all right in my America? When did this happen?
My biggest personal challenge is preparing for the departure of my daughter and her family which most likely will happen next month. PLEASE pray for them to leave with no regrets!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How can I live without my sweet grandbabies when they have been just over there across the road all their lives???
Robert and I decided to sell the quarter of farm ground I inherited in SD so I'm having to deal with my siblings and their spouses. This has brought no small amount of upheaval as I recall how I was cheated out of a rather largish portion of my inheritance.
On the other hand, we're buying a quarter of ground up here. We know that they're not making any more ground, as farmers always comfort themselves when they buy some, but the wheat price can't seem to get above $5 a bushel. I just copied this interesting bit of information for those who think that farmers are getting rich. From that $5 we got paid for making a bushel of wheat, someone else makes a WHOLE LOT MORE!
There are about 150 cups (8oz.) of grain in a 60 pound bushel of wheat (1 bushel = 0.352 hectolitres in volume, 1 hectolitre = 3381.4 US fluid oz.). When converted to flour these 150 cups of kernels produce about 300 cups of flour. About 3 cups of flour are required to produce a single 1.5 pound loaf of bread. Therefore 1 bushel of flour produces about 100 loaves of bread each weighing 1.5 pounds (24 oz.) Or, in other words, a bushel of grain berries (kernels) produces about 150 pounds of bread.
So one bushel of wheat berries (which we grow on our farm) makes about 150 pounds of bread. I found this information about the average cost of bread.
The average price of a 500 gram (slightly over 1 pound) loaf of fresh white bread is somewhere between $2.37 and $2.43 in the United States, as of 2014. The average price ranges from $2 to $4.41 in different locations in the United States.
So from our bushel of wheat, corporations get 150 pounds of bread with an average price of $3. We multiply that out and we get $450. Now remember that the wheat farmer gets $5 for that amount of wheat. HMMMM They make on average $450 and give us $5. Not a bad deal for the big corporations. Not a good deal for the wheat farmer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So why would anyone keep doing it? Well, somebody has to do it as I don't see the world giving up bread. Robert and I know how to do it having both grown up on grain farms. We have the land and equipment to do it, so why shouldn't we do it? We also love living in the country. Did I ever mention that before?
So basically this morning I am BUMMED--not only for me but for farmers and ranchers everywhere. We MAKE THE FOOD for our countries. WHY SHOULD WE BE THE POOREST PEOPLE????????????????????????????
I don't know what good my ranting this morning will do. If only you who have money for fancy houses and boats and hunting gear would truly APPRECIATE the great value you have to be able to buy food produced by those of us who don't have money for all of those things, somehow we could go on believing that THIS year we'll get a good crop AND a good price for it!
In the meantime, I comfort myself with music. I was led by the Lord to share this song with you. Perhaps you, too, are not flowing in silver and gold. Well, to those who have accepted Jesus Christ as your personal Savior, someday you'll walk on streets of gold!! He is preparing a mansion for you in Heaven.
Let's cling to those thoughts together! Let's pray for the farmers and ranchers together!! Let's find a way through all of the upheaval in our world together.