Tears of Joy

I am sitting here crying tears of joy. My brother, Duard, just sent me this email. Not only does it bring WONDERFUL news about my dad but HE ACTUALLY SIGNED IT, "LOVE, DUARD." I am 52 years old but never do I recall him using that "Love" word with ME!!!! OH FOR JOY!!!!!!!!!

I just HAD to share this, as you are the ones who hear all of my woes--now, at long last, there is a GREAT JOY to share with you. Thanks to each one of you who has prayed long hours for me AND for my family of origin.

I AM SOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dawn

rejoice, our savior has died for our sins and my father has decided he is happy at assisted living and does not want to move home anymore. he is happy there and fits in nicely. that is such a relief for us because he would have lost his spot and if he would have fallen ill again, the nursing home would have been our only alternative, and no one wants that. have a happy easter with your family. we are having sharels family and dad over for easter. prime rib. yummy.. if you can make it, i will save you a small chunk.. ha ha. love duard

Victory in Jesus

On Wednesday, when I was working at my office, Jean told me that the North Dakota Massage Therapy board had printed a rebuttal in the Dickinson Press. They're no longer insisting that we become licensed massage therapists to do our work, but that there be a regulatory board that keeps track of all of the energy modalities. PRAISE GOD AND THANKS A MILLION TO ALL OF YOU WHO PRAYED ABOUT THIS WITH US!!! I guess I'll never know if my email made any difference, but I did mention the word, "Slander" in it, so I'm assuming that it didn't hurt to make them realize that our businesses are protected under the law also.

There is another meeting, in Bismarck, set for Wednesday, April 21st, 2010 at 9 am at the Best Western Doublewood Inn to continue the discussion with the board concerning licensure of all these modalities. I am planning to attend the meeting and I hope that you who are practitioners will also pray about and consider attending. This is our chance to show them what WE want.

Here is the transcript of the article that appeared in the Dickenson Press on March 19th, the day after the meeting.

Once again I give all of the glory to the Lord for what He has done for me!!!

In His service,

Dawn

March 19th, 2010

Board mulls licensing for alternative therapies
By: Lisa Call, The Dickinson Press

After a meeting of the North Dakota Board of Massage Thursday morning in Bismarck, alternative practitioners may continue providing alternative services without obtaining a massage therapy license as previously announced in a public service announcement.

In December, the North Dakota State Board of Massage issued a press release advising that as of Aug. 1, state law had “changed in order to further protect the public.”

During the January 2009 Legislative session, the North Dakota Senate, Human Services Committee, at the request of the State Board of Massage, passed an amendment to the North Dakota Century code, further defining what the term massage encompasses.The amendment further defined massage as a systematic and scientific manipulation of soft tissues, whether manually or mechanically, while using western and eastern modalities.

“Under the new law, anyone who performs massage, by whatever name they call it, must be licensed by the state of to do so,” according to the release. “Those unlicensed persons currently practicing Thai Yoga, Reiki, Core Synchronization, Rolfing, Craniosacral Therapy, Healing Touch … and other massage techniques must stop doing so until they obtain a proper license.”

After the press release was published statewide, alternative practitioners were left wondering what effects the changes would have and if they continue practicing.Alternative therapies such as Reiki use the body’s energy to promote healing, reduce stress and increase relaxation.

Thursday’s meeting was to clarify the application of the law change. Bobbi Kleeman, owner of Alternative Therapies and Wellness Center in Killdeer, said her mother attended the meeting and relayed some information.

“Their big thing is they said that the way the PSA was worded wasn’t exactly what their intent was,” Kleeman said. “They want people to just be sure that their practitioners are certified in whichever modality they’re doing, not that they all have to be licensed massage therapists.”

Kleeman said the NDBM wants alternative therapy practitioners to formulate a regulatory board to ensure those practicing have the proper certifications and training for which modality he or she is using.

Kleeman said a meeting of alternative practitioners is scheduled for April 21 at 9 a.m. CST.“We’re going to do something, whether it’s a state board of energy workers or if it’s just a registry board,” Kleeman said.

“They want every group to bring to the April meeting a list of certification requirements for whatever that modality is.”Kleeman said the formulation of a regulatory board for alternative therapy practitioners is a positive step forward.“I think there’s going to be more and more things like this coming up as far as energy work,” Kleeman said.

“It’s been around a long time it’s just that people are finally feeling comfortable with it per se. They’re running out of other options and finding out that this is less invasive and can do a lot.”

Calls to Karen Wojahn, secretary in charge of licensure for the NDBM, went unreturned.Multiple attempts to reach NDBM President Sharon Klusmann were unsuccessful.

Calls to NDBM Board of Directors members including Gail Hovden and Continuing Education Coordinator Bob Benson went unreturned

Doesn't it make you wonder when people have the courage to slander your business in the press but don't even have the guts to talk to you about it afterwards?

The Lord hears the cries of His people and answers with a Mighty ARM--blessed be the name of the Lord forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GOD AND GOD ALONE CAN HELP ME

This morning I was feeling overwhelmed. I was overwhelmed by all of the wonderful material that I learned in the past 4 days. The perfectionist in me was thinking, "How in the world will I ever memorize all of THAT material?" There are almost as many new techniques as I have already mastered.

Then I was overwhelmed by this finger STILL itching; swelling; peeling; blistering; and tingling. I am soooooo glad that I had a session with "Melanie's" Andrew when he was here during class. He's a chiropractor/BodyTalker... In that session with Andrew, I learned that there are 5 factors involved in this finger problem and hopefully it will be a thing of the past here soon, but it's still a pain in the hand..................................

I was also overwhelmed this morning as I pondered a personal situation that I must deal with involving another BodyTalker. It came up as a factor in this finger situation and Dr. Andrew Colyer told me that I need to address it for the finger to heal. PLEASE PRAY FOR ME. I hardly slept last night as I prayed over this, but the Lord showed me a plan of action and now it's just for the courage to follow through.

I'm still shifting from the incredible session with Andrew which I had on Sunday. My head hurts quite a bit and I know that I "Should" (I'll post on SHOULD soon) just take it easy today. However Cora is gone babysitting today and it's time to make lunch but all I want to do is go and soak in the whirlpool. Tomorrow is my office day in Bismarck......................

Just now I cried out to the Lord when I came in the kitchen from the bathroom and saw that I had turned on the wrong burner on the stove. Instead of warming the water in my teapot, I was cooking my bread knife which was VERY hot. I guess I need to be more careful where people put things when they clear the table AND which burner I turn on.

Well, to be honest, I was just plain overwhelmed. That's when I turned my face towards Heaven and cried out to the Lord for help. This song popped into my head then and I knew that I was to find it on U Tube. I watched it and, after I had a good cry, I knew that I was to share it with you too.

I'm hoping that, if you're having a day where you feel like the whole world is resting on your shoulders like I was this morning, this song will be a reminder that it doesn't. Oh yes, He had me do the BodyTalk technique where you get rid of false belief systems before I listened to the video. The concept was, "The whole world is MY responsibility." WOW--no wonder my neck and head are hurting today. I covet your prayers!

Be blessed,

Dawn

Half way over already ):

How can it be that class is half way over already? I learned soooooo much today that it makes my head spin.

We reviewed 5 elements first thing in the morning. Elizabeth said that no other of the instructors that she's taken it from has done this. Melanie ran us through the seasons and showed how all of the elements are part of the FIVE seasons. Which is the fifth? Have you ever heard of Indian Summer?

Then we learned body vivaxis. This is really wild but we learned how to move things in the body. The session that I did on Lori was moving her throat chakra down a little bit closer to the muscles in the left lower back. You learn to trust the right side of your brain when doing BT. This is what it felt like.

First I found the links and then I tuned in to her body. I literally felt the energy of the throat chakra come up into my hands. Then I felt that it wanted to move closer to the muscle. I was wondering if that was all that it wanted when I felt that it rotated just a tiny little bit in my hand. Then I felt that it wanted to go back into her throat just a little lower than it had been before. Tap out and switch partners.

Lori got that my nervous system needed to be moved away from my body a little bit and that it needed to link to all of my muscles. It felt sooooooooooo good when she was done.

Later on Melanie taught us a way to balance the breath cycle and, when she tuned into the group's energies she got that she was supposed to do this one on me. It was incredible how focusing my breathing could have the affect of loosening up stuck energies in my pelvis that have probably been stuck for decades.

When I got off the table, I felt 2 feet taller and my posture was perfect!!!! Now I/we have homework of doing those breaths twice a day indefinitely.

Well, I need to go soak but I want to share a few pictures from the first 2 days of class. This is what greeted us when we entered Room # 114 at the DoubleWood Inn yesterday morning at 9:30.

Here Elizabeth is introducing Melanie to the group which was mostly us regulars but 3 additional practitioners. One is from Fargo and the other 2 are from out of state--all nice ladies.

This was the artist section of the class. All 4 of these ladies are artists!

My friend of 20 years, Bel, waiting for her session from Melanie. When you start in BT, every one's name goes into the hat and Melanie draws one out. However, in the upper modules, people volunteer for Melanie to work on them. She said that she likes to let things flow naturally and so leaves it up to the group to decide who should get worked on next. I must be too shy yet as I missed my cue this afternoon that it was my turn. Melanie figured it out, though, as I REALLY needed that procedure.

Today Jean took this picture of me working on Lori. The natural sunshine was soooo very welcome as we don't use the florescent lighting so it's kind of blah in there sometimes.

Lori handed me her business card. She's a year behind me and is just getting started running her own business. In the background you can see one of the new ladies named Chris. She talks to animals and teaches classes to help others to learn how to do so. I'm hoping to get her to come here sometime this summer. We're going to work together to have her come back.

Well, as to be expected, I'm tired and sore so I'm going to soak. Robert got called unexpectedly to Eureka to help his folks get rid of their stuff before they move to Mandan the first weekend of April. His dad needs to go on dialysis so then their house will be up for sale. I said to Robert that, if my dad sells his house and stays where he is, we'll have two auction sales to prepare for this summer. UGH.

I know, I know! One day at a time!!!!!!!!!!!!

Please keep our class in your prayers.

Dawn

5 Elements

The first day of class was GREAT. I learned one drop in the ocean of knowledge about the Chinese 5 Elements. Something must have stuck for, when I asked if anyone wanted a sample last night after family prayer time, I did 2 mini sessions. Which 2 I'll leave you to wonder about but will answer the question IF anyone asks.

I took some pictures but I don't have time to post them now. I slept as long as possible this morning as there is SOOOOOOOO much to learn. How I love that God has brought me to BodyTalk where I will never stop learning for the rest of my life. The human body is so incredibly complex that it will never cease to be an amazement to me!

One very interesting thing is that I met an animal communicator. She is willing to come to our farm and do a one day workshop for $140 per person. Anyone interested in attending?

Gotta go but I want to wish all of you a very happy Sabbath.

Love much,

Dawn

IT'S TIME FOR SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can hardly believe that Module 4/7 starts tomorrow in Bismarck! I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOO
excited!!! I covet your prayers, as it will be a LOT to try to take in with classes (all new material) being every day for 4 days from 9:30 to 6:30, plus 2 hours of driving added in.

Other years I have pondered accepting a standing invitation at my friend, Bel's, house. It seemed so wonderful to be able to just go "Home" and unwind without having to do the driving. Then when I thought of how much better I sleep in my own bed than anywhere else, and how much I'd miss seeing my family, I knew that it would be best for me to commute. I'm comforting myself also that it won't be so bad now that there is more daylight. :)

Please pray for the class. Elizabeth told me last night that 2 more people have decided to join us so that means there will be 18. When there are that many people in the room, there isn't enough space to have lecture tables AND work tables. What we do then is do our classwork while seated at the massage tables. Then, when it's time to work on each other, we have to put all of our books on the floor and get out the pillows. All of this takes time and slows things down, which is an irritation at times. Oh well, how else could I afford to take a class with travel, hotel, and meal expenses added in? I am VERY thankful that our group is now large enough so that the upper modules can come to Bismarck. YEAH!!!! I'll try to post pictures every night, but we'll see how tired I am. :)

I wish all of you who get to go to the home school convention TONS of warm fellowship; great learning; and joy as you praise the Lord together in songs and worship!!!!!!!!!!!! The convention is in our prayers as you all travel and with the concern over flooding. GOD WILL BRING EVERYONE TO THE CONVENTION THAT HE WANTS THERE!! Those of us who are in the category of them that He doesn't want there this year (for whatever reason) will rejoice to hear later of how you were blessed in the Lord! Please share freely--especially your pictures. :)

I haven't written about what's been going on with the ND Massage Therapy board as I wasn't sure what the Lord wanted me to do about it. Elizabeth called late on Tuesday saying that she had just learned that they were holding their meeting THIS morning at 9:00 in Bismarck to discuss what to do with all of us BodyTalkers........ who are ILLEGALLY PRACTICING MASSAGE!!! GOOD GRIEF!!!!!!!!!!!!! Specifically they were going to discuss the VERY negative feedback that they got from that article in the Dickinson press last December.

Anyway, I was trying to determine if the Lord wanted me to go and speak my mind about this AGAIN. You may recall that I took the opportunity to do so in January at the capitol. I STRONGLY felt that I needed to take yesterday and today to rest up for class and do distance sessions for clients that I won't be able to see during the class.

First I told Elizabeth that I couldn't handle the stress of another day on the road. Then I told her that Andrew may be going up to get grain cleaner parts and I'd go represent us BodyTalkers if he would drive me. Then I told Elizabeth that I wouldn't go because he decided that he'd wait until next week to get the parts that he needs as he has enough work to do with the parts that he has. Then I told her that maybe I could go to the meeting because now Cora is buying some bred heifers from up there and Robert needs to do some business, so I might ride along with him early this morning. Then late last night I told Elizabeth that I went on their website and found that the meeting was cancelled due to the weather (that would have to be the political climate that they find themselves in as the weather is gorgeous.) Lastly I told Elizabeth that I just couldn't go to bed without doing SOMETHING, so I did THIS and I sent her a copy, and FINALLY HAD PEACE! WOW!!!!!!!!!!!! And I'm only ONE of her clients. :)

This is the email that I sent to the secretary of the ND Massage Therapy board late last night. Now, I want to make it perfectly clear that I love a LOT of massage therapists. The local one in Napoleon offered me a place to work in her home, except that she doesn't really have room for another practitioner, but it's the thought that counts! I have nothing against any of the wonderful massage therapists that I know. However, this one who is the secretary of their board is another matter. She has cost ALL of us energy practitioners in the state LOTS of stress and time and expense to try to keep on top of their tricks.

I decided this morning to post this on my blog so that people can see my response to the threat of the board that we must stop working because they view us as doing massage. That is so totally ridiculous as I could NEVER do massage with my limited strength. NOR DO I WANT TO DO MASSAGE, AS IT IS BODYTALK WHICH SAVED MY LIFE!!!

I need you all to understand that, as far as I know, it's just the board which is confused about our work and resenting that we are taking away income from them, but I could be wrong about this part. I do not hold the board's actions against any individual massage therapist except the secretary of the board who stirred up this hornet's nest!

One friend cautioned me here to separate the individual massage therapists from the board saying, "Some day you may find that YOUR board doesn't 100% represent YOUR wishes either." Good advice. Currently we don't even have a board but this action by the ND Massage Therapy board has started to unify all of us energy workers so that there is now talk (after working together at the capitol) of forming a ND Board of Energy Practitioners or something of the sort. We'll see.

So without any further ado, this is what I sent to the secretary of the ND Massage Therapy board late last night. I tried to be as civil as possible and I asked her to share my thoughts with all of the members on the board. PLEASE PRAY THAT MY THOUGHTS, AND THOSE OF THE OTHER ENERGY PRACTITIONERS WILL HELP THE BOARD TO SEE THAT THEY NEED TO PRINT A WRITTEN APOLOGY IN ALL OF NORTH DAKOTA'S NEWSPAPERS. WE NEED TO BE ABLE TO WORK IN PEACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh yes, I want to share one funny aspect of my comments to the massage board. When I wrote up my "Testimony" yesterday, I said that God himself had given me my diagnosis because He did! Well, over lunch yesterday I asked everyone what they thought of wording it that way. It was unanimous that I'd be put into the KOOK category if I left it that way. So we had a ball trying to come up with the best way to express that concept.

Some suggestions were, "My physician," "An old doctor," "My physician, who is great," "A wonderful physician," "Paulette's physician," "A doctor I met up there" but that one wouldn't work because I didn't JUST meet God up at Paulette's. Let me know of what you think of what I settled on. NO, I'M NOT GOING TO TELL YOU HERE--YOU NEED TO KEEP READING TO FIND OUT. ;)

To my whirlpool for a reprieve and then to work,

Dawn


To whom it may concern,

I am one of the BodyTalk practitioners who met at the capitol to share my thoughts on the slanderous article that was put in the Dickinson newspaper. If I had not come across BodyTalk in 2006, I WOULD BE DEAD FROM SHINGLES ON MY BRAIN. I don't know how you people can sleep knowing that you are trying to keep North Dakotans from getting the kind of help they need!

I was planning on coming to the meeting tomorrow morning to share my thoughts on that newspaper article. However, I just saw on your website that the meeting has been cancelled. At least this is what I saw on your site:

Next Board meeting is scheduled for:Ramkota Inn - Bismarck Room 3130 March 18, 2010 - due to the weather the meeting was cancelled for tomorrow. 9:00am - 2:00pm

In light of my uncertainty about the meeting being held, and the drive that I would need to take to attend a meeting that may not be held, I am sending my comments for all of you on the board to read. I am trusting that you will share my thoughts with all of the board members. Many of us feel that your board needs to print a rebuttal for the slanderous comments which you have made against our businesses. We are certified by the International BodyTalk Association and that should be good enough for you.

Most sincerely,

Mrs. Dawn Bornemann



My name is Dawn Bornemann and I'm from rural Kintyre, ND where I live on an organic farm. I am alive today because of a healing modality called BodyTalk. The stresses of repeated droughts, plus family tensions, almost took my life in 2006. That year in July I began trying to find a doctor who could figure out why I was dizzy all the time.

I became deathly ill but none of the 4 doctors I saw were able to figure out what was wrong with me until much damage was done to my nerves. Later a neurologist told me that I was, "Stressed out and needing a good rest." I then went to a health center in the Turtle Mountains for 18 days to "Have a good rest." I was certain that it would be a permanent one!

Fortunately, I found a naturopathic physician there who diagnosed me with internal shingles on my brain. That was when we began bee venom therapy, as that had been proven to help with shingles. Immediately I improved a tiny bit and was sent home with a quart jar full of honey bees.

My 20 year old daughter gave me, on average, 5 bee stings a day for a year until my body began to reject the venom. At that time, I met another naturopath who suggested that I take the BodyTalk Access class, which I did in June of 2007. When this helped, I pursued in-depth BodyTalk sessions with Elizabeth Hanson, CBP, who also taught the class. I improved quickly then, so she became my heroine!

After using the simple Access techniques for 6 weeks, I was able to reduce the bee stings from 5 to 1 a day. The nerves in my neck began to heal and I had hope of recovering. Prior to this, my sense of balance was damaged from the shingles and for many months I needed somebody to guide me about lest I fall AND it was unsafe for me to drive a vehicle. My head bobbed constantly, as the nerves to my neck were so damaged that there was not enough support for my head. Also, it sounded as though a freight train was running through my head for almost a year and my short-term memory was badly damaged. I liken the pain in my neck and head during that time to someone holding a hot iron to my neck! I lived on pain killers.

In September of 2007 I was somewhat recovered and took the 5 day BodyTalk classes called Modules 1 & 2. On the last day of class, Elizabeth used the BodyTalk biofeedback method of checking with my body. When she asked, "Are bee stings a priority?" the answer came back, "NO." That morning my daughter had given me bee-sting # 745 and it was the last, for the sessions that I received in class healed the nerve damage so incredibly that I no longer needed the bee venom therapy. THAT WAS ONE OF THE HAPPIEST DAYS OF MY LIFE!!!!!

After that, I had the knowledge I needed to give myself BodyTalk sessions whenever I had pain. Believe me, I MUCH PREFER THIS TO GETTING BEE STINGS EVERY DAY AND MY DAUGHTER DOES TOO!

As others saw my progress, and recovery from a life-threatening illness, they started asking me to give them sessions. I pursued further training with the International BodyTalk Association and then, last Fall I, myself, became a Certified BodyTalk Practitioner (CBP). I named my business, LINKS TO HEALING. I'm so glad to have this wonderful tool which is helping others to recover from minor problems to life-threatening situations.

BodyTalk works by strengthening the communication systems within the body. When we are under stress, the messages that are supposed to flow freely through our body are hampered. The brain is able to repair ANY damage IF its 2 sides are properly linked to each other. I like to think of stress as a tree that's fallen across a road, consequently blocking the flow of traffic. When the crane comes and removes the tree, then traffic can flow freely once again. A BodyTalk session is like that crane that removes the cause of the blockage, PLUS, it repairs the damage to the road.

We use biofeedback to determine where the blockages are located. Then we determine what items need to be linked together to bring healing and we lightly tap on the head. We're saying to the brain, "I know that you know this, but you may have forgotten it with all of the stress you've been under." Next, we lightly tap on the heart so that it stores this information and the changes become permanent. This is how BodyTalk healed my traumatized brain.

I have had many massages and they were not one bit like a BodyTalk session, so I am hoping that my sharing this will help a little to end the confusion! We BodyTalkers do NOT do massage! I cannot imagine myself being strong enough to be a massage therapist, as my body was permanently weakened. I CAN lightly pull on a hand to get a "Yes," or "No" response, though. In this way, not only have I been able to save my own life, but I've been blessed to be able to help others recover their health as well!

See what's happening at our organic farm by viewing my blog (an on-line journal) at: http://dawns-hope.blogspot.com/.

FINALLY

Finally I THINK I get it--I think I understand the mystery of this finger business. I have been deeply grieved over it since this last session. It's like all hell has broken out with it peeling almost all the way up to the knuckle on the backside and blistering something awfully on the front side. It kept me awake last night until I got up and put some kombucha on it. I figured, if that didn't kill the itch, nothing would. Then I slept.

I just didn't seem to get what the Lord was trying to teach me through this experience. Did you ever have lots and lots of thoughts about something, but nothing seemed to make sense when you added up 1 + 1. Did you ever pray for weeks about something and then, all of a sudden, it clicked and you understood. This is what happened tonight--this is how the Lord spoke to me through my precious family.

Jacob was reading my, "Pet peeve" post. He asked, "What's a peeve?" Everyone laughed and we tried to explain it to him. Then he jokingly said, "Well, where do you keep your PET peeve, Mom?" I was trying to come up with an answer to that question when somebody said, "What do you want to keep it for anyway?" Then somebody else said, "Yeah, why not get rid of it?" Then somebody else said, "Maybe you should run an ad in the giveaway section, "Pet peeve for giveaway."

We all laughed, but it stirred something up in me and I felt suddenly excited that I was coming to the end of my journey with this finger business and maybe much more than that! As I washed the supper dishes, my mind was taken back to 2006 when I was deathly ill. I had a friend named Christopher then, who is a Master Herbalist. Chris helped me in soooo many ways, as I battled for my life, but the thing that sticks in my mind the most is when he explained something really profound to me about the concept of healing.

Chris had the details that I don't have now, but he said that we are constantly making new cells in our bodies. These new cells replace the old dead cells so that every so many weeks or months our organs, endocrines, and body parts are completely remade. He went through the different kinds of cells and how quickly the multiply--some of them completely replacing their old parts in as little as 21 days!

By that time I had been ill for many months. Most of those cells that I had when I first had gotten ill had been completely replaced. I remember Chris saying to me then, "If you've had all new cells since you first got ill, then why are you STILL ill? Could it be that your THOUGHTS are keeping you sick? Could it be that sick THOUGHTS are making the newly made cells sick too?" INDEED!

So back to tonight. As I pondered getting rid of my pet peeve AND my itchy finger, I realized that it is once again my thoughts that are keeping me sick. This is almost 4 months now that I'm dealing with this finger. Then I thought about what emotions that finger stores. IT STORES ANGER AND SEXUALITY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, if you've been following my blog for any length of time, you'll know that for 20 years I've been trying to recover from the severe abuses that I endured in my childhood. Those are the emotions that have been coming out of my finger during these last 4 months of REALLY deep BodyTalk sessions.

"I JUST DON'T GET IT," I cried out to the Lord as I washed the supper dishes, "what are you trying to tell me? If I'm capable of rebuilding healthy cells very quickly (especially in the skin) then why is my finger still so sick?"

I felt the Lord urging me to think about the emotions stored in the finger and how long they've been there. Why, it's been almost 50 years since the abuse first began--that's a long time to store something. "If it's true, Lord, that I could have rebuilt all new cells in my finger by now, then why didn't I?" EXACTLY.

SUDDENLY, LIKE A LIGHTNING BOLT, I UNDERSTOOD THAT MY FINGER HASN'T GOTTEN WELL BECAUSE I DON'T REALLY BELIEVE THAT GOD CAN HEAL ME FROM INCEST!!!!!!!!! IT'S TOO UGLY! IT'S BEEN TOO LONG! MY PARENTS NEVER MADE IT RIGHT! IT'S HOPELESS! WOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!

Melanie always says that a BodyTalk session brings things to the light so that we can deal with them. It's like lowering the water layer on an iceberg so that we can see what needs to be done to fix the problem. Now I am in tears as I see that my UNBELIEF is what has continued my agony these many months with this finger.

Now I see that even THIS must yield to Scripture, so I insist that it try to stand up against this promise in Philippians 4:13: For I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me. ALL THINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can even be healed from the chains of self-hatred forged early in the home of my childhood.

What a leap for my mind to see that on the inside I can be totally clean and healthy and happy like my finger will be once again after this passes on. I covet your prayers as I face the most dreadful truth of all--the knowledge that I have despised myself for something that wasn't even my fault! Do you suppose that it's time, like Ecclesiastes says, to tear down the self-hatred that I learned 5 decades ago? GOD CAN HEAL EVEN THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PRAISING HIM,

Dawn

OH MY!!! I always knew that the Lord is incredible but I just closed this post; went in my room to put my books away for the day; and my eyes feel on these words. I knew that I just HAD to open this post up again and add these words from my Module 3 book. This is what Dr. Veltheim writes in the chapter explaining how consciousness works. I quote from page 66:

Other kinds of expectations can be around the client's view of themselves or how they label themselves. For example, someone with a drinking problem may accept the label, "I am an alchoholic." For this person, even if an underlying physiological disorder such as poor sugar metabolism is balanced, they will still be unable to drink socially. Because they have accepted a label of alcoholism, the first drink will trigger their belief that they cannot drink moderately. They may indeed go on a drinking binge and fulfill the prophecy contained in the label. THIS CAN BE SIMILAR FOR ANY DISEASE WITH WHICH A CLIENT IDENTIFIES--NO CURE IS POSSIBLE. AS LONG AS THEY LABEL THEMSELVES BY THE DISEASE, THEY CAN ONLY GO ONTO TEMPORARY REMISSION OF SYMPTOMS.

In my case tonight, as I ponder these words, I see that very early in life I accepted the label, "Victim," for that is what I was and that is what I stayed! I share my prayer with the hopes that, if this is sounding familiar to you, you too will seek His help to be free from all labels!!!

OH LORD, PLEASE FREE ME THIS VERY NIGHT, ONCE AND FOR ALL, FROM THIS DREADFUL LABEL WHICH HAS KEPT ME WEAK AND SICKLY WHEN YOU HAVE SUCH A BETTER LIFE PLANNED FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHOW ME HOW TO OVERCOME THIS LABEL OF "VICTIM!"

IN YESHUA'S NAME,

AMEN!