I'm a FOUR!!!!

My precious daughter-in-law, Marie, has been sharing with me about Carol Tuttle for over a year.  Because of all the stress from the abuse I suffered as I child, I've been doing well just to keep living and serving my family.  I didn't really care about how I looked!!

When you're home schooling your children; caring for small animals; producing much of our own food; and dealing with health challenges it doesn't really matter how you look.  What matters is that you get things done!!!  People are hungry and tired and need to be taught.  When is there any time left for me?

There wasn't any time just for me because I never took any.  I didn't feed my soul while I was feeding my family.  I didn't know to focus on my needs as that had never been modeled for me by my mother.  I just gave and gave and gave until I gave out at the ripe old age of 48.

Now my health challenges have progressed to include MS which is a constant struggle of pain management.  I'm happy if I can get the basics of cooking and cleaning done plus taking care of a few clients every week. So, when Marie said that it mattered that I found out what type I am, I thought "I already know my type." 

You see, I've studied different types of typing systems (pun not intended) and didn't need another one.  According to one system I'm a "Golden Retriever" rescuing everybody.  I'm also a "Summer" when it comes to color analysis.  Another one said that I am a "Melancholy" which tends towards depression if everything isn't perfect.  Andrew said that I was something with letters and numbers in a 16 type system. How can I be something else too?

 Marie kept encouraging me to figure out my type in Carol's system.  She said that Carol says we're stronger when we dress our truth--now THAT caught my attention.  What does it mean to dress my truth?

So I delved in.  Marie and I were pretty sure that I was a type 1 who is very outgoing and fun-loving and I'm sure that is my secondary energy type.  LET'S HAVE A PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!

I started watching different videos that Carol put together to help people figure out their energy type.  I listened to Marie share how happy she is now that she wears the clothing that has the same energy she has.  HMMM

Andrew kept saying that I'm a 4.  I DIDN'T WANT TO BE A 4!  In fact, as I watched these videos, the only woman who really bugged me was the 4 woman.  So I kept praying for wisdom and peace.  I prayed like this, "Why does it matter that I know what I am according to Carol Tuttle?" 

There was no peace.  I'm a 1.  Go on!!  So I bought myself a cute little ladie's cap for Summer and looked at it often and wore it occasionally and thought I was off to a good start.  It just kept bugging me, though.  Something wasn't right.  It didn't feel right and it brought me NO peace.

Yesterday morning I was sick and tired of it.  I sat myself down and said, "Why don't you want to be a 4?"  No response.  Then it came to me what to do.  "I'll do Emotional Freedom Technique on this."  So I set up the opening phrase, "Even though I do NOT WANT TO BE A FOUR, I love and accept myself." 

As I tapped, the tension began to leave and I tapped until it was gone.  Then I took the color charts from Carol's style kit and read the descriptions of the 1 and the 4 clothing types.  I started to feel a little more comfortable with the 4 colors.  I read the descriptions; looked at the colors; and prayed to know the truth.

Then I went back and forth between the 4 and the 1 color sheets praying for peace.  I opened up my mind to the fact that I am a 4 (which Andrew has said all along) and I felt peace seeping into me and I started to feel happier.

Back and forth I looked at the 4 colors and the 1 colors praying to know my truth.  Little by little the 4 colors brought me joy and excitement.  When I looked at the 1 colors, I noticed how drab they looked.  They pulled my energy down.  They actually made me weary.

Then I remembered the day that I buried my father.  I wore my black funeral dress (4s are the only ones who look good in black) and my brother said that I looked gorgeous.  NOBODY EVER TOLD ME THAT I LOOKED GORGEOUS BEFORE!!!  When I wore the 4 colors, because I was grieving the death of my father, I looked gorgeous and I felt much more confident than I had anticipated feeling that day.

Right now I'm feeling like I have found a great treasure and I want to share it with the world.  Now I know how Marie has been feeling wanting to share it with me so I share it with you.

Carol has lots of videos on YouTube to help you determine your type.  I really liked this one as it helped to hear all of the types discuss what was comfortable for them in clothing.  I will add this caution, though.  If you're not seeing yourself in any of these, it's possible that you're a 1 as 1s have trouble deciding things OR you may be blocking knowing your type for some reason as I was. 

This is a journey that may take awhile to figure out your type.  However, when you do, it will be worth it.  Enjoy the video.

Dawn