Who am I?

I just had an unnerving experience. For a while now my naturopath, Dr. Faye Johnson from Dakota Natural Health Center in Bismarck has been referring her difficult cases to me. This means that she works with people; does all that she can to help them; finding that she has run out of techniques to help the patient; she sends them to me.

I have been very honored by Dr. Faye's faith in my skills and techniques. I have been able to further help these people through the techniques that I know and so she continues her referrals. Just now, though, I had one that makes me VERY nervous for some reason.

This woman told me that she just got back from Mayo where they were unable to help her except to give her some new medications. She told me that she has reacted to them, which is not a new experience for her. Right now there is very little that she doesn't react to--her inner environment is so very toxic.

This woman, a school teacher, has had to quit work and is in extreme pain constantly. She said, "I'm calling you because Dr. Faye said that you can maybe help me. It's only a ray of hope that I have, but that's better than no hope at all."

I told her that I named my blog, A RAY OF HOPE, for that very reason. BodyTalk was only a ray of hope to me when I was terminal also. Now this woman looks at ME as the one who is extending that one ray of hope to her. Can you imagine how unsettling this is for me?

Who am I to be the person who gives this critically ill woman a ray of hope? Who am I to think that my skills can save HER life? Who am I to think that someday she may look at me as I look at Elizabeth Hanson--the BodyTalk practitioner who saved my life through God's guidance and blessing.

Jacob just said, "Mom, this is your big chance. You've been wanting to work with someone who is very sick so that you can build a reputation for yourself." GULP....

I do have the dream of having a health center here for the ill SOMEDAY. God gave me this dream as I lay dying up at Paulette's center 4 years ago. But that is in the future--then it won't bother me that someone's life is at stake; then I'll have more skills; then I'll have more nerve; then I won't be so busy with home schooling and the farm.........................................

In response to the doubts I have raised I will say that I told the woman, "Yes, I'll work with you." I sent her to the IBA website to study BT and the KRT website to study radionics before her in-person session with me next Tuesday. I told her that, if she sends me a sample of her hair in the mail, I will do a session on her the day that it comes. I told her that there IS hope in the combination of these 2 natural modalities--that many people are starting to find rapid improvements in their health in the past few months since I began combining them. I gave her hope.

Now, as I ponder all of that, my insides are churning as the thought keeps recycling in my mind, "WHO AM I?" Still, God DID say to me on my deathbed, "There is WORK to be done, Dawn." So I work in the Lord's fields. He saved my life for a purpose. He led me to the modalities that I've studied since then; He developed my intuition; He gives me the strength to do the sessions; He is the one who does the healing!

I rest, then, on His will for my life but I covet your prayers for strength, courage, and wisdom as I go about the task of giving folks hope--A RAY OF HOPE. For some people, that is all they've got!

To the work, Dawn, to the work!