"My" inheritance

Hi everyone,



I haven't written here in a while seeing as it's Summer and I am VERY busy with the garden; with clients; and with enjoying our new swimming pool!  The real problem, though, I think is that since I'm on Facebook, I've gotten lazy.  I even slopped through an email the other day and it shook me up.  "Whatever happened to "Real" writing," I scolded myself and made the necessary corrections to the letter to make it proper.




No, this isn't meant to be a post about sloppy writing but rather about how the Lord is working in my heart this Summer.  You see, as I sat in my dad's attorney's office the day after his funeral, I heard the words that it would be AT LEAST 4 months until we learn the amount that I would inherit.



Do you have any idea how hard it is to wait 4 months to learn if there's anything left after dad's 3 years in the nursing home?  My dear husband and 2 of my brothers know how hard it is.  Whenever I catch myself getting stressed over this, I talk to one of them.  One time my youngest brother actually called me to talk about money.  How can this be?  Doesn't he recall that money is the biggest taboo subject in our family????????????




All of this waiting has done a good work in my heart and that's why I'm writing.  As I ponder the differences between becoming wealthy or just "Plodding along" as we are now, I have somehow become EXTREMELY grateful for all that I have.  I have come to see all that was given to me by my parents and long for the chance to thank them for it. 



All of this has made me SUPER grateful to Robert for his supporting me so well these past nearly 34 years.  I keep thanking him over and over for his hard work and this morning we sat down and talked about how the junk yard paid him in cash instead of a check.  I am amazed now that I could have gone through 56 years of life and done all that I could to NEVER talk about money.  Money, what a dirty word it was to me--a tool to hurt others with.  YUK--who would ever want any????




All of this contemplation has made me realize something else about my parents.  I realize that they truly DID give me a pearl of great price when they taught me to love music!  I don't know why I couldn't see it before this.  I guess growing up in a musical family was something that I thought everyone did but I know now that's not true.  Now I see that my mom putting in her will that she wanted me to have her music and her books truly WAS her biggest blessing to me!!!  How warm it made my heart to see that dad had that in his will too!!!




WHY?  They have 4 children, why didn't they split these between us 4 too?  I think it's because they knew that I was the only one who would truly love them!!  They both taught me, song by song--practice session by practice session--that there is true joy in serving the Lord by sharing one's musical gifts!  How could I ever thank them for this???????????




What I am saying is that, as the 4 months of waiting draw to a close, I have come to see that I already HAVE my parent's greatest gift to me!!!  To be able to sing praises to my King with a pure heart of joy IS an unspeakable joy to me and they are the ones who gave it to me!!!!!!!!  Thank you, God, for blessing me with musical parents and a musical gift of my own.  Please help me to use it in a way that would please YOU always!




Now I want to share a song with you that the Lord just shared with me.  I can see in it, how He is indeed preparing me for a time when I have more money than I have now.  How could I ever be happy to have more money while others all around me are hurting if I don't use it to help them?  Yes, I want a bigger house but I want it to be a house where anyone feels welcome--where everyone can come to seek refuge from the storms of life. 




I pray that this will open your heart to see the people all around you who are needing YOU to bless them!  God blesses us so that, through all that God has given to us, we can bless others.  Amen?  This is NOT meant to be a condemnation for past opportunities missed but, as it says towards the end of the song, an awareness of the 22nd time he sends someone into our life with needs that we have the answers to.



It COULD be money that they are needing but maybe it could be someone to babysit to give a new mom a break.  It could be someone to read to an older person.  Someone may need their lawn mowed or the snow pushed or groceries picked up OR it's just entirely possible that someone is needing to hear a special song sung just for them.  As I wrote that last part, I wondered where this is leading me to.  I've joked for years that I should cut a CD but maybe He wants me to cut out the kidding and start the blessing????????????




In the meantime, I share this incredible song to bless all of us with the knowledge that God's people are here to bless others.  It is my greatest prayer that this post will bless someone out there who is feeling all alone right now.  May my words and the words of this song bless your heart with peace, dear friends!!!




God bless,



Dawn